Prayers do get answered if you have faith.
I feel like today started off pretty productively. I finished washing the week's laundry, both machine and hand-washed. Haha, for some reason I feel proud of that.
I thank God so so so much for answering my prayers! I was praying all the way back in the train. My mom's car...or rather my aunt's actually...my mom was just driving it... went missing yesterday and we were so afraid it was stolen. After many calls, it seems it got towed away. But luckily we managed to get my stuff back. I mean, my laptop and a lot of other stuff were in it. I was going back to my gran's for like a week so, obviously I had to move most of my stuff back coz there's no computer here and whatnot. So, thank God, thank God that I got them back! I've always feared for my laptop and stuff, I NEVER EVER dare put them in the car or anywhere else. I usually make sure they'll at home or with me if I bring it along out (which is rarely ever). I was so afraid and I wouldn't know how to tell that to my dad.
I think I pretty much scared people yesterday with my "rage". I don't know. I found myself scary. But I was really angry at my mom for not taking care of things properly but I know I really shouldn't blame her. Whatever it is, things are fixed so it doesn't matter anymore. I felt that same coldness grew inside me as the time my phone got stolen at work. Is this suppose to mean something? >____<
So yes.
THANK YOU GOD.
And thank you Alissa for messaging me to check up on me. You care! I'm happy.
Thank you Julia for praying for me and walking me to the train station.
Anyways, on another note, I reaaaally reaaaaally wanna watch Hokaben (Shigeee~) I'm trying to watch it off Veoh but the connection keeps breaking coz the study room's in some secluded spot of the house so now I moved out to the living room. Just for now since it's just me and my grandma. The same user who uploads the Hokaben and Last Friends (Ryo~) episodes also uploaded Puzzle (Yamamoto Yusuke~ ). So, as it is , there are waaaaaaay too many spring dramas coming out. And because my modem is the broadband-bring-anywhere-you-like kind, the connection is too slow to download torrents. But whatever it is, I'll leave that matter for another day. Zettai Kareshi is also out (Mizushima Hiro..i think is his name ~) And in summer, there comes the HanaKimi SP (Tomaaa~)
I know I've been mentioning Shige a lot but Toma is still the best, in my opinion.
Veoh has loaded 1/2 of part 1 of Hokaben ep 1. There's still hope.
If I don't like it or if I find it scary, then I have the option of just not reading them but still
je_secrets is pretty interesting to read because it just shows how different each person thinks. And it's pretty much a harsh slap on the face of reality on fandoms. I'm not too deep in it but those people who make secrets that attack personally on a certain LJ user is really scary. Especially when it's just this specific user that keeps getting attacked. It's a scary place. But yes, I still read 'em. And I thought Post Secrets were really on about reality...but then there came
je_secrets .
Now I'm starting to wonder if going to Adelaide next year is a good thing. I would still be going but now I'm just worried for my mom. What would happen to her when I'm not around. And I'll be there for at least 2 years. I'll come back during hols sometimes, sure...but still...I don't her to be left alone here. I'm the only one she has and things has not been good for the both of us. Perhaps, i have it better than her because I still have my dad who pays for my education and such. I would really like to do things that would make her happy and comfortable but at the moment, I don't have that kind of capability. A while ago when I got excited about a new ambition of mine, something that I could do after I graduate, I thought she'd be alright on her own with me constantly keeping in touch with her but now...I wonder about that. I used to have this ambition of being a doctor so that i could offer help in really needy countries like Third World countries for example (yeah, that was the ONLY reason why I would sacrifice my 7 years of university for) but in the end that didn't come through because I realized there were other ways of helping those people. Being an only child with a single mother sure bears a lot of responsibilities and I am more than happy to bear them. I mean, my own mother's burden because of me is far greater than what I would be expected to do so I would never complain but comply.
There's still some time till I graduate but I will keep wondering.
Yosh! I've got some beta-ing to do~ And finish up the fansubbing. Oh and I mustn't forget the most important of them all. My assignments.
I thank God so so so much for answering my prayers! I was praying all the way back in the train. My mom's car...or rather my aunt's actually...my mom was just driving it... went missing yesterday and we were so afraid it was stolen. After many calls, it seems it got towed away. But luckily we managed to get my stuff back. I mean, my laptop and a lot of other stuff were in it. I was going back to my gran's for like a week so, obviously I had to move most of my stuff back coz there's no computer here and whatnot. So, thank God, thank God that I got them back! I've always feared for my laptop and stuff, I NEVER EVER dare put them in the car or anywhere else. I usually make sure they'll at home or with me if I bring it along out (which is rarely ever). I was so afraid and I wouldn't know how to tell that to my dad.
I think I pretty much scared people yesterday with my "rage". I don't know. I found myself scary. But I was really angry at my mom for not taking care of things properly but I know I really shouldn't blame her. Whatever it is, things are fixed so it doesn't matter anymore. I felt that same coldness grew inside me as the time my phone got stolen at work. Is this suppose to mean something? >____<
So yes.
THANK YOU GOD.
And thank you Alissa for messaging me to check up on me. You care! I'm happy.
Thank you Julia for praying for me and walking me to the train station.
Anyways, on another note, I reaaaally reaaaaally wanna watch Hokaben (Shigeee~) I'm trying to watch it off Veoh but the connection keeps breaking coz the study room's in some secluded spot of the house so now I moved out to the living room. Just for now since it's just me and my grandma. The same user who uploads the Hokaben and Last Friends (Ryo~) episodes also uploaded Puzzle (Yamamoto Yusuke~ ). So, as it is , there are waaaaaaay too many spring dramas coming out. And because my modem is the broadband-bring-anywhere-you-like kind, the connection is too slow to download torrents. But whatever it is, I'll leave that matter for another day. Zettai Kareshi is also out (Mizushima Hiro..i think is his name ~) And in summer, there comes the HanaKimi SP (Tomaaa~)
I know I've been mentioning Shige a lot but Toma is still the best, in my opinion.
Veoh has loaded 1/2 of part 1 of Hokaben ep 1. There's still hope.
If I don't like it or if I find it scary, then I have the option of just not reading them but still
je_secrets is pretty interesting to read because it just shows how different each person thinks. And it's pretty much a harsh slap on the face of reality on fandoms. I'm not too deep in it but those people who make secrets that attack personally on a certain LJ user is really scary. Especially when it's just this specific user that keeps getting attacked. It's a scary place. But yes, I still read 'em. And I thought Post Secrets were really on about reality...but then there came
je_secrets .
Now I'm starting to wonder if going to Adelaide next year is a good thing. I would still be going but now I'm just worried for my mom. What would happen to her when I'm not around. And I'll be there for at least 2 years. I'll come back during hols sometimes, sure...but still...I don't her to be left alone here. I'm the only one she has and things has not been good for the both of us. Perhaps, i have it better than her because I still have my dad who pays for my education and such. I would really like to do things that would make her happy and comfortable but at the moment, I don't have that kind of capability. A while ago when I got excited about a new ambition of mine, something that I could do after I graduate, I thought she'd be alright on her own with me constantly keeping in touch with her but now...I wonder about that. I used to have this ambition of being a doctor so that i could offer help in really needy countries like Third World countries for example (yeah, that was the ONLY reason why I would sacrifice my 7 years of university for) but in the end that didn't come through because I realized there were other ways of helping those people. Being an only child with a single mother sure bears a lot of responsibilities and I am more than happy to bear them. I mean, my own mother's burden because of me is far greater than what I would be expected to do so I would never complain but comply.
There's still some time till I graduate but I will keep wondering.
Yosh! I've got some beta-ing to do~ And finish up the fansubbing. Oh and I mustn't forget the most important of them all. My assignments.