Until We Bleed
Sometimes, I just need to write. There are some things drinking and smoking just can't--writer's block already.
I'm taking my frustration out on my cat, poor thing. She should be allowed to make a mess of things, even if it's almost 3am.
I snapped today. I just couldn't take it. Normally I just "react". Not today. If things would just be simple, but that tunnel vision is getting insane. Glorified self perception, always perfect, never making mistakes. If only the shoe was on the other foot. You'd be driven insane too by the constant inconsistency of your moods. The lack to find contentment within yourself first is very draining. Self deprecation is a boring hand, you're just bringing everyone down, man.
I don't even know anymore. I have no trouble being alone. I miss the happiness, but the instability is something I'm over with. I'm over it. I'm not 19 anymore. People need to learn to keep things private as well, because when/if things go back to normal...oops.
I'm taking my frustration out on my cat, poor thing. She should be allowed to make a mess of things, even if it's almost 3am.
I snapped today. I just couldn't take it. Normally I just "react". Not today. If things would just be simple, but that tunnel vision is getting insane. Glorified self perception, always perfect, never making mistakes. If only the shoe was on the other foot. You'd be driven insane too by the constant inconsistency of your moods. The lack to find contentment within yourself first is very draining. Self deprecation is a boring hand, you're just bringing everyone down, man.
I don't even know anymore. I have no trouble being alone. I miss the happiness, but the instability is something I'm over with. I'm over it. I'm not 19 anymore. People need to learn to keep things private as well, because when/if things go back to normal...oops.