This wasted year, these wasted years

Dec 31, 2010 23:56

10 minutes until this year ends. I'm still ever so confused. It seems I have difficulty with these simple things. I don't know what to do anymore. I carry a smile all year long, I put extra effort to pleasing everybody, especially those I love, but as the year comes to an end, I'm alone, my nose runs, and my eyes red. It's so pathetic. It seemed so simple, I don't know how and why it always gets to this point, I don't understand why we allow it at all. We do have control, but we choose to be upset or find reason to.

5 minutes 'til. Happy New Years. I'd like to pretend things will be different on 2011, but I'll just be told I'm being silly.

All eyes on the calendar
Another year I claim of total indifference
To here, the days pile up
With decisions to be made
I'm sure all of them were wrong

Into this song I send myself
And with these drinks I plan to collapse
And forget this wasted year, these wasted years
Devoted friends, they disappear

And I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you
Some decisions you don't make
I guess it's just like breathing and not wanting to
Yeah, there are some things you can't fake

Well, I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again
And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago
Or a friend that you used to know
And there below his frozen face
You wrote the name and that ancient date
And you can't believe that he's really gone
When all that's left is a fucking song

And I'm sorry about the phone call and waking you
I know that it is late
But thank you for talking, because I needed to
Some things just can't wait...

Feb. 15 - Bright Eyes
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