I decided

[curlywurly21]

To step away from the computer for a few days, make sense of my head. Needless to say.. It didn't work. I've just been spending time with the kids during the day and studying my ass off at night. I seem to have hit a lump in my course.. so that sucks. Brendan brought us all into town today, for shopping. We had a lovely lunch and he suggested putting the kids into the creche, so... They went in, Doireann was a bit upset for the first few minutes but once we were out of sight she calmed down, whereas Éowyn just went in no bother on her. So we hit a few shops.. he needed some new gear for the gym so I helped him pick out some new stuff, we got on SO well. It was amazing, it was so nice. But looking back on it now.. Maybe it will only serve to complicate things further. I only think of him as my friend now, but i do wonder am i giving off the wrong vibe.. He picked out a new shirt and i casually threw out a remark like "oooh you'll have loads of girls after you in that" and he looked kinda upset. So i guess maybe he is still hoping, kinda. Which isn't good. I dont want to come across as a hard hearted bitch, But he should just move on, find someone who can make him happy. I want him happy.. :(

On another note, The final Harry Potter was released today!!! YAY. I got my copy about 10 hours ago and have spent about 2 of those hours just staring at it. I'm dying to read it, but once i do, that'll be it, ya know? Its over. No more secrets, magical speculation.. So i guess I just don't want it to end. I think i might just take it real slow. Usually i can finish a book in a few hours.. But this time I'm gonna limit myself to a few chapters a night. I'm reallly REALLLLLLY excited!

So.. All in all i guess I'm ok. We aren't fighting, and we aren't thinking of being together. Well I'm not anyway, so that is progress!! So all in all... a good day :)

HARRY POTTER!!!!! YAAAY!