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Oh my oh my...I don't know what's going on in my life right now. It's pretty dull and lonely. Footloose practices are fairly pointless and just end up making me depressed. I got up kinda late today, jumped in the pool, and yeah went to practice. I wish I could just be happy for a while. I feel like such an outsider, like I'm watching everyone else be happy and live their lives from a distance and nobody can get to me. And now I sound like a total moron who needs to get a life and stop whining, lol. I guess part of me can be happy at times...but it's sort of rare. The happiness only lasts so long and then I'm back to feeling lonely and sad. Why does it feel like I've already made this post? Ah, it could be because I've felt this way for a while! Anyway, let's pretend I'm not trying to fight off certain feelings and having a very difficult time with it, and let's pretend I'm ok with just living life like I am right now so I can talk about other things! I still haven't seen War of the Worlds, gotta see that soon. I want to go to Kings Island again soon, so if anyone wants to go with me please say so! I actually have a day off from practice tomorrow. They're having that farewell dinner thing for the Scottish kids tomorrow night, and I don't think I'll be going to that. So I have no clue what I'm doing tomorrow. Also if anyone ever wants to come swim just give me a call! Ok I gotta get off here -- my contacts are doing the dry thing which means it's getting late and I'm getting sleepy. Goodnight!
Cindy
Cindy