mistakes....
after a talk with Heather and Chelsie ive relized that i dont need drinking to make all my pain and shit go away.....all i need is good friends and i have them. i just have been too stupid and caught up in stupid shit...Im trying to grow up too fast and i shouldnt. I should just be a normal high school kid. No more college guys or parties, no more drinking...From now on ill be me with out all the extra shit. It has ruined my relationships with people. People have viewed my diffrently because of it. I dont know i thought it took away all my sadness nad pain but really it just numbed it and saved it for later and put more pain and sadness on top of it... I have two wonderful great best friends who care for me and i dont need a drink or two to feel better...all i need is to surround myself with people my age and people who make good choices...From now on ill be me but without the older people and drinking...Ill be a normal 16 who likes to have fun and talk to my bestest friends....
I have been dumb and made bad choices... i have ruined my relationship with people and i just want to stop trying to act older...I just wana live my life now...Ill grow up when im ready and when its time too.....Im trying to grow up too fast i guess... and most of all i thought maybe people4 might think im cooler or something but boy....i was TOTALLY wrong...noone wants to hang out with someone who needs to drink everytime they feel sad...
maybe if i stop my relationship with people will get better and people will like me better...maybe if i stop numbing my pain and sadness and deal with it then it will get better not worse.
i just cant believe it took me so long to relize it and have it hurt my relationships with others....
I hope that people will support me with this and i know my 2 best friends will be there for me...
ive replaced drinking and college people with support and people my age who acutally care for me....
please post comments and tell me if u are supporting me or whatever u think or if i have ruined our relationship...
I know i will have the support i need.....
well tommrow is a new day and i will wake up with a improved outlook on life....
well i will stop repeating myself and get back to talking with my best friends Chelsie and Heather....
BYE BYE jim, jack,mike and captain morgans.im done with you all...your replaced haha
I have been dumb and made bad choices... i have ruined my relationship with people and i just want to stop trying to act older...I just wana live my life now...Ill grow up when im ready and when its time too.....Im trying to grow up too fast i guess... and most of all i thought maybe people4 might think im cooler or something but boy....i was TOTALLY wrong...noone wants to hang out with someone who needs to drink everytime they feel sad...
maybe if i stop my relationship with people will get better and people will like me better...maybe if i stop numbing my pain and sadness and deal with it then it will get better not worse.
i just cant believe it took me so long to relize it and have it hurt my relationships with others....
I hope that people will support me with this and i know my 2 best friends will be there for me...
ive replaced drinking and college people with support and people my age who acutally care for me....
please post comments and tell me if u are supporting me or whatever u think or if i have ruined our relationship...
I know i will have the support i need.....
well tommrow is a new day and i will wake up with a improved outlook on life....
well i will stop repeating myself and get back to talking with my best friends Chelsie and Heather....
BYE BYE jim, jack,mike and captain morgans.im done with you all...your replaced haha