hello world
It's so weird to be back in Edinburgh. Right now I still dont really have a place to live since our flat isn't going to be ready for another three weeks. I just feel like I'm at a loose end. When I come home at night I don't really know what to do with myself, and it's so frustrating not having a place of my own. Nicola and I are sharing a room in a flat where we dont know anyone else and basically living out of our suitcases. I havent really realized until now how difficult it is to cook nice meals for yourself. At home there's always any ingredient you could think of in my house somewhere, but here i have to do so much planning about what I'm going to eat and stuff. I can't really buy a ton of food because we'll be moving soon anyway. Classes start today and I'm not really sure how I feel about that. I'm not really taking too much that I want to take, which is so sad because this is my last year to take anything other than English lit. Some days I feel so happy here, but others I just want to be home with what's familiar. I already feel so removed from home, because I havent been able to contact anyone in a week and a half. It's such a pain not having internet, because every time I want to get online I have to walk for 40 mins to get to the library. I guess I'm just frustrated with everything in general right now. I have this feeling like I want to go home, but that's not quite it. It's like I want to go to a place where I can fit in, even though I do fit in here, but a place where I can feel more satisfied about everything. Too bad I don't know where that place is. I'm already so afraid that living with my friends is going to get on my nerves, because lately so many things have been annoying me about living with someone else. I guess it should get better when we all have our own rooms. Anyway, thats enough of my complaining. I am happy about being in the city again, every time I see the castle up on the hill it takes my breath away.