I don't know if anyone reads this anymore
I just realized how much pent up anger and frusteration I have. I'm pulling an all-nighter in order to finish a bunch of shit for school tomorrow. I've been procrastinating a lot this week, which has led to the freezing of my nexopia account..it's too much of a distraction, and I hate myself for it. So here I am, 2am will turn into 3am, but I will feel no sense of accomplishment after this hour, for I will have done a pitiful amount of work. I have no confidence in my abilities, and even worse...no motivation. A combination that pretty much equals failure in my courses. But I feel as if I have come this far, and I know if I don't try my best from here on out, my grades will not only be fucked, but I'll let myself and my parents down... considering they are paying for my tuition this semester, and I convinced them in the beginning of the semester that I was going to try really hard, unlike highschool. I think I have a bit of attention deficit disorder. I'm really finding it difficult to focus lately, and it does run in my family. There have been so many times this week that I wanted to yell "FUCCKKKK" at the top of my lungs, but I have hardly expressed myself at all. Too much work to do.