Right place wrong time wrong time wrong time.
That's it right? We are all here but we are never here. We are all there but never actually there.
Today has been good and bad. Which is why I concluded as 'Right place wrong time' because I was right on sitting down at the table, right beside jiaxin, right in front of him. But despite all that, I was wrong about the time. It's almost A's and it's as though we are all preparing and not having time, so I don't have time for all the fun an joy of sitting near him. Then why is it? Why is it? I thought I'm used to that constant SMS he sends out to girls, why am I feeling heartbreak over such things. Why am so affected that I would never be the one he will ever look at? Why is it that I'm nothing to him yet he's a lot to me? Why is it that when I'm emo when I'm sick when I'm stress when I'm crying I feel like he is the one I can only think of? When can I stop being confused?
Probably because in the past I was never this close in proximity and in terms of chatting to any of my crushes that's why when he's right opposite me I felt more upset than when my previous crushes are just a figment of my life. I hope he becomes that too soon, so that I can stop all this confuse thoughts. I hope I can get over him. I hope he gets attached so that I would give up. I hope for a lot, I hope for none.
I'm physically, mentally, emotionally drained, by thoughts of him and exams.
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