End of the Year

[curlygirl32]

So, I couldn't be happier the year is coming to an end. Anyway, RA job is still pretty shitty- it's so fun when u have to put on a fucking social and no one ever comes- even when they promise they will or they ask for something specific. Eh, I guess I'm used to it by now. It's fun when u can't have a social life, and even when u do, u still feel like shit. It's funny how everyone is always out partying on Thursday and that's become the night when I jsut feel fucking depressed as hell. I love how I have so many "aquaintances"- must be because I don't ahve many close friends so I try to make up for it by seeming to know everyone. I tell myself I'm happy single- I am not. I could totally rock the single life, but that wouldn't work out so well for me- probably just end up even more depressed. What do I look forward to anymore? I don't know- maybe sleeping, but I don't want to wake up. I should be doing homework right now, but I don't think I care mcuh anymore. Everytime there's a chance to do something I want, I'm tied down. I feel like I can never escape. Which makes me hate everyone else who can do it so easily.

well, time for my dose of reading- maybe I can forget everything for a while if I bury my head in a book.