what? it's after midnight? i couldn't tell...
i think that even though I should sleep to try and preserve what emotional stability i have left i will instead drink and insane quantity of mountain dew and stay up as late as i can. why will i do this? because i'm stupid. i think this is too hard for me. i've certainly been failing miserably so far. oh well whatever. there's nothing really that i can do. ugh. i'm a fool.