dam boys its been a year
this again is a work in progress I didnt intend for people to read it like this Im putting it out that just in case.
(if I had to wright a story or a book about the past year in my life)
*A Note to those of you that may read this. I set out to do this for me, But in writing it I hope someone may get something out of it?
Altennet title (how I start counting years by dates other then new years)
Theres been some really really good times and some relly really bad ones.
The biggest thing that’s happened this year..
Ive been a “Christan” for one year now. Hence the title.
And for anyone that dosnt think that title is approite it is. Don’t judge me “because when you point a finger at me you point 3 more back at your self” - very smart guy
As previously stated I “gave my life to Christ one year ago today. (This means that I believer Jesus Christ was a real man on this earth. He died on a cross for my sins and rose from the grave. That’s hes my lord and savor in my life. And Im “working” every day on following him and being like him.) - what it means to be a christen or what I or some people define it as . sure (note warnin to thoses of you don’t know how I take things esp. quots all out of context and order ect.)
To back up in the past year Ive lost 2 really good friends that were exceptional people that were great christens. I didn’t value them as much as I should have sometime. I was setting in a church and I I could think about was “That could be me in that box. There’s no reason it shouldn’t be me. Ive just been lucky. This nice lady set down on me and pated me on the back and said dont worrie %^&$@N& is in heaven right now smiling down on all of us. That’s all I could think about for days on end. I drove and drove and drove. I drove something like 400 miles in 2 days I didn’t going any where. I didn’t know what to do I didn’t know who to talk to all I new was I had to change I felt empty and void and needed something.
All I could think about was dieing and not wanting to die and what happen when I did. I decided I wanted to go to heaven. I didn’t know how to get there or who you bought tickets from. I decide I was goijg to find out. I had a bible my Grrand mother had given me. I though I did unless it had bee thrown away. I found it in a draw with the coard board rapper still on it. It hadn’t been opeaned twice. I tried that and looked at it and looked at it and maybe read 2 pages. I decided I would try going to church.
“Church” scared me I didn’t know what all those weird people did. (piror to this point in my like I had been to church maybe 15 times in 21 years?) It was a strang thing for me I don’t know where to start. I went to my recently deseased friends church. I didn’t know what to do or how to do things. I showed up way to early and end up going to bible study. I dint know what bible study was. Hear I was sitting in this hard pew and lsten to this people read out of little books I didn’t have . but this lady brought me a book and told me what to do so I stumbled througt that. So I strugglesd throught that and mumbled throught most of the songs they were singing. So I was going to church and was going to try a few out. I was back to squar one. Where to start? I new 3 people out of all the semi imidate circle of contacts that went or even “clame” to go to church. I asked this indivual If I could go to church with them. Kepp in mind I was freaked out even walking in those doors. I don’t knopw how to act all thos peole talking to me. I doidnt know what to say or do. Another side not I owe this indivual so much for their kindness and their family I could never repay to them it was probly insagnificent but it helped me so much. I wouldn’t be where I am today with out them. So that helped me get over my fear of walking in to churches. I then I begin checking out churches. I went to several.
(if I had to wright a story or a book about the past year in my life)
*A Note to those of you that may read this. I set out to do this for me, But in writing it I hope someone may get something out of it?
Altennet title (how I start counting years by dates other then new years)
Theres been some really really good times and some relly really bad ones.
The biggest thing that’s happened this year..
Ive been a “Christan” for one year now. Hence the title.
And for anyone that dosnt think that title is approite it is. Don’t judge me “because when you point a finger at me you point 3 more back at your self” - very smart guy
As previously stated I “gave my life to Christ one year ago today. (This means that I believer Jesus Christ was a real man on this earth. He died on a cross for my sins and rose from the grave. That’s hes my lord and savor in my life. And Im “working” every day on following him and being like him.) - what it means to be a christen or what I or some people define it as . sure (note warnin to thoses of you don’t know how I take things esp. quots all out of context and order ect.)
To back up in the past year Ive lost 2 really good friends that were exceptional people that were great christens. I didn’t value them as much as I should have sometime. I was setting in a church and I I could think about was “That could be me in that box. There’s no reason it shouldn’t be me. Ive just been lucky. This nice lady set down on me and pated me on the back and said dont worrie %^&$@N& is in heaven right now smiling down on all of us. That’s all I could think about for days on end. I drove and drove and drove. I drove something like 400 miles in 2 days I didn’t going any where. I didn’t know what to do I didn’t know who to talk to all I new was I had to change I felt empty and void and needed something.
All I could think about was dieing and not wanting to die and what happen when I did. I decided I wanted to go to heaven. I didn’t know how to get there or who you bought tickets from. I decide I was goijg to find out. I had a bible my Grrand mother had given me. I though I did unless it had bee thrown away. I found it in a draw with the coard board rapper still on it. It hadn’t been opeaned twice. I tried that and looked at it and looked at it and maybe read 2 pages. I decided I would try going to church.
“Church” scared me I didn’t know what all those weird people did. (piror to this point in my like I had been to church maybe 15 times in 21 years?) It was a strang thing for me I don’t know where to start. I went to my recently deseased friends church. I didn’t know what to do or how to do things. I showed up way to early and end up going to bible study. I dint know what bible study was. Hear I was sitting in this hard pew and lsten to this people read out of little books I didn’t have . but this lady brought me a book and told me what to do so I stumbled througt that. So I strugglesd throught that and mumbled throught most of the songs they were singing. So I was going to church and was going to try a few out. I was back to squar one. Where to start? I new 3 people out of all the semi imidate circle of contacts that went or even “clame” to go to church. I asked this indivual If I could go to church with them. Kepp in mind I was freaked out even walking in those doors. I don’t knopw how to act all thos peole talking to me. I doidnt know what to say or do. Another side not I owe this indivual so much for their kindness and their family I could never repay to them it was probly insagnificent but it helped me so much. I wouldn’t be where I am today with out them. So that helped me get over my fear of walking in to churches. I then I begin checking out churches. I went to several.