This Thingie

[curlyamygirl]

i wrote this.. yeah.. been in a funk since yesterday.  so.. here.

stand up, be strong
there's no time to cry
things to do and people to help
you can do this, it's not so hard.

but sometimes, it is
sometimes i cry
sometimes it hurts so bad i
can't even breathe.

i think, god, one more day?
i can't do this, it's not fair.
but that doesn't matter
the world doesn't stop.

smile frozen in place
because it's all okay
and nothing could possibly
be bothering me.

who's there for me when
the pain gets so bad that
i think i must faint, or fall
over, unable to continue?

no one, because no one
knows.  there's no need
to tell anyone, because
what good would it do?

so i carry on, each day, feeling
the fire in my chest burn a little
hotter, the pain a little sharper
every time i swallow it back.

it shouldn't still hurt this bad
but yeah, sometimes, it does.