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So I haven't updated in a few days, miss me?
Alright so this is how it went
Tuesday draws a blank.
Wednesday, I went to Chuck E. Cheeses with my little brother... it was pretty fun.
I was about to hang out with Mary at the spectrum, but it seems her parents don't think it's such a great idea, they think we'll get back together, I think there is no possibility, we've moved on. But moving on pretty much sucks, but our relationship feels like a blur and I don't like it. I can't imagine me ever having been 'taken', I can't imagine myself ever being kissed so passionately, I can't imagine myself ever having been held like that... it's pretty sad. I feel as if there was another Amir, lived through my age of 15 and handed it all back to me at age sixteen. Age of fifteen, towards the end, seems to been full of hate and fear.
Fear of no one loving me as much, fear of being damned to be lonely, hate of being hurt so bad... hate of a person.... passionate hate.... But I have moved on, the age of sixteen comes and there goes the hate and most of the fear. I've become her friend, there is no use in looking to the past, we must push forward against the walls of things to come, we must pick up our things and leave... and unfortunately not get attached to things that are close.... it's too hard to withstand sometimes.. well most of the time. There are the people I just can't get unattached from, it's horrible, but it wouldn't be if they were attached, I wouldn't feel the guilt. But I don't want to impose on anyone, I don't want to play on the feeling of sympathy and wow, I went off on a tangent... now for today
Thursday, Well today Mike dropped by to drop off the present he made for my family and I, I was embarrassed as I didn't have a present for him, but he didn't mind.. oh well, I'll get him something someday. Then around 5 I went to see Dick and Jane, it's a really funny movie, it's weird though, it doesn't feel like I went to the movies today, then I went to target and got Star Wars Episode III.... it's now one of my favorite movies ever, it was sooooo sad and so well made, effects are amazing and it's the last puzzle piece in the series. Such a beautiful work. Maybe it was the nostalgia.... I love nostalgia, now I'm sitting here, semi-emotional... semi... oh well
<3
Alright so this is how it went
Tuesday draws a blank.
Wednesday, I went to Chuck E. Cheeses with my little brother... it was pretty fun.
I was about to hang out with Mary at the spectrum, but it seems her parents don't think it's such a great idea, they think we'll get back together, I think there is no possibility, we've moved on. But moving on pretty much sucks, but our relationship feels like a blur and I don't like it. I can't imagine me ever having been 'taken', I can't imagine myself ever being kissed so passionately, I can't imagine myself ever having been held like that... it's pretty sad. I feel as if there was another Amir, lived through my age of 15 and handed it all back to me at age sixteen. Age of fifteen, towards the end, seems to been full of hate and fear.
Fear of no one loving me as much, fear of being damned to be lonely, hate of being hurt so bad... hate of a person.... passionate hate.... But I have moved on, the age of sixteen comes and there goes the hate and most of the fear. I've become her friend, there is no use in looking to the past, we must push forward against the walls of things to come, we must pick up our things and leave... and unfortunately not get attached to things that are close.... it's too hard to withstand sometimes.. well most of the time. There are the people I just can't get unattached from, it's horrible, but it wouldn't be if they were attached, I wouldn't feel the guilt. But I don't want to impose on anyone, I don't want to play on the feeling of sympathy and wow, I went off on a tangent... now for today
Thursday, Well today Mike dropped by to drop off the present he made for my family and I, I was embarrassed as I didn't have a present for him, but he didn't mind.. oh well, I'll get him something someday. Then around 5 I went to see Dick and Jane, it's a really funny movie, it's weird though, it doesn't feel like I went to the movies today, then I went to target and got Star Wars Episode III.... it's now one of my favorite movies ever, it was sooooo sad and so well made, effects are amazing and it's the last puzzle piece in the series. Such a beautiful work. Maybe it was the nostalgia.... I love nostalgia, now I'm sitting here, semi-emotional... semi... oh well
<3