Congratulations, Loser
I don't know whether I should be pissed off or crying right now. Let me explain what's happened that past few days and today and then you'll see why I should be contemplating suicide (don't worry I'm not!).
Ashley Hewett and I write notes almost every day in health. And in September, when I first found out about Dwayne's girlfriend I wrote this one where the words whore, he wants some, and gag me came up. Yesterday Dwayne was going through my purse, found it, and read it. So now I think he hates me, even though he and Brittany protest strongly. But I don't believe, no matter what they say. Because after the first time Dwayne found out that I called someone he knew a whore jokingly, he seemed upset. So I promised myself I would stop judging people I didn't know. Only now nobody believes that. Even though the note was written way before he found out the first time.
AND I REGRET WHAT I SAID SERIOUSLY. YOU GUYS CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE HOW HORRIBLE I FEEL FOR JUDGING MOLLY AND I'M SOOOOO SORRY. But it's too late for that now....
So today at lunch Brittany and I were talking and Dwayne came up. Then out of nowhere she's like, "He says you're a sweet girl but he doesn't like you that way." In other words, making me feel like a five year old. It made me really really sad though and when I got mad at her for it, she said something about I always told her what Nick said. But that's because she asked what Nick said. And even then I would sugar coat it. And try not to make her sad. But oh well.I'm going togo now because even typing it makes me wanna cry....