end of another chapter
Yesterday was my last day as a Nurse Tech at HMC NICU. The next time I engage in paid medical care, I'll be a nurse. I found the transition last night when I left work at 7:30pm to be more jarring than my graduation. At graduation, it didn't feel like an ending, because I was still doing the same job, and still have to take the NCLEX. But this week, the job is over and the NCLEX looms Thursday. NOW, I feel graduated. I won't be available until after my test on Thursday for any social stuff, but then I'll have a few weeks off from everything before work starts. That'll be something...
I'm a little sad and a little expectant and a little nervous. Its an end and a beginning. I found that when I left the unit last night, I was more concerned with leaving behind the really sick patients than the nurses I have grown fond of. I know I'll see those nurses again. I don't know if the patients will live through the week. I hugged those patient's family members and wished them well. They are in my thoughts. There has been a lot of death and grief on the unit lately. Maybe its a bad month. I have to keep telling myself that those who passed are no longer in pain, no longer suffering, that their families can begin to grieve. But its still worth it. Nursing. Caring for those who need it. Definitely still worth it.
I'm a little sad and a little expectant and a little nervous. Its an end and a beginning. I found that when I left the unit last night, I was more concerned with leaving behind the really sick patients than the nurses I have grown fond of. I know I'll see those nurses again. I don't know if the patients will live through the week. I hugged those patient's family members and wished them well. They are in my thoughts. There has been a lot of death and grief on the unit lately. Maybe its a bad month. I have to keep telling myself that those who passed are no longer in pain, no longer suffering, that their families can begin to grieve. But its still worth it. Nursing. Caring for those who need it. Definitely still worth it.