Narrowing down those life plans
I just finished my weekend on the set of Robert Boesel's film for which I costume designed. Wow. What fun! First of all, it was incredibly well-run, and second, they loved my costumes and were stroking my ego all weekend, which I love too. I have 2D computer animation with the 1st assistant director, and he went beyond complimenting my costumes to tell this freshmen about my superb animation project! He's just an all-around nice guy, but I loved the attention.
So I think I've narrowed down life to animation or costuming, but I don't think I'm particularly suited to either for a career. I can't really draw that well, and I don't have a steady hand on the computer, I don't sew well at all, and I definitely don't know fabrics, dyeing, etc. I've got good ideas and poor execution, and I'm sure I could learn all the execution, but better in an art school of sorts, and I don't know that I want to pay for that.
Might as well open up here. I don't want to do costume design because I feel like people might look down upon it. I feel this compulsion to break gender boundaries, which is stupid, but costume design does not achieve that. Animation kind of does, not really though, but at least it's more technical than costuming. I feel like if I do something more technical it'll make my dad proud of me, which is really stupid, but the thought that I'm not making him proud really nags at me! But as I'm sitting on set, I'm thinking to myself that there really isn't anything I'd rather do than costuming. I might enjoy directing or camera, but I'd be nitpicking about the costumes. Plus those are the super-involved jobs, and I wouldn't want to concentrate on anything that long. But I like the respect of being the leader. With this project, Robert really made me feel like my job was important and like I was the only authority on it, and it made me way happier about sitting around playing with clothes while everyone else worked.
All I really want is respect. As long as what I do is respected, then I'll feel confident doing it.
So I think I've narrowed down life to animation or costuming, but I don't think I'm particularly suited to either for a career. I can't really draw that well, and I don't have a steady hand on the computer, I don't sew well at all, and I definitely don't know fabrics, dyeing, etc. I've got good ideas and poor execution, and I'm sure I could learn all the execution, but better in an art school of sorts, and I don't know that I want to pay for that.
Might as well open up here. I don't want to do costume design because I feel like people might look down upon it. I feel this compulsion to break gender boundaries, which is stupid, but costume design does not achieve that. Animation kind of does, not really though, but at least it's more technical than costuming. I feel like if I do something more technical it'll make my dad proud of me, which is really stupid, but the thought that I'm not making him proud really nags at me! But as I'm sitting on set, I'm thinking to myself that there really isn't anything I'd rather do than costuming. I might enjoy directing or camera, but I'd be nitpicking about the costumes. Plus those are the super-involved jobs, and I wouldn't want to concentrate on anything that long. But I like the respect of being the leader. With this project, Robert really made me feel like my job was important and like I was the only authority on it, and it made me way happier about sitting around playing with clothes while everyone else worked.
All I really want is respect. As long as what I do is respected, then I'll feel confident doing it.