deep thinking thought...kinda depressing. so don't read if you dont wanna hear it
so i was thinking today about love. I was in love once. A long time ago. 6th and 7th grade to be precise. then after the boy i was in love with moved away, i thought i found love again. Once i broke up, i realized it definitley wasn't love. so if someone were to ask me if i think being in love at my age is possible do you know what i would say? highly unlikely. i think their are a few select people who will find love in high school. only a few. high school is a time where you can't be in a serious relationship. you can't plan to be with that person for the rest of your life because you haven't even lived half 1/3 of your life yet. im not gonna lie, i dont even think i believe in romantic love anymore. i believe in the love for family memebers, and close friends but idk if i really believe in a love for someone else romantically. you have to trust that person with everything that you have, every secret, every flaw, every ounce of yourself and hope that they don't take your heart and just break it in half. how do you know? is there a sign? this may sound rediculous but i have been hurt so many times before that i don't think it's possible for me to tell anyone that i love them seriously. i think people who find love and capture that are amazing. i admire them so much that words can not describe. but for me, i dont see myself every letting go in a guy's arms. i think there will always be a wall that i put up to everyone. i highly doubt that anyone will ever care that much to break down that wall. it may be stupid but i think at this age there is a slim chance to ever fall in love