oh, just some things.
yesterday i turned 21. it was really fun to have all of my friends together in one place -- although i wish my daddy could have made it! we all went to bahama breeze and drank and ate and laughed. it was so relaxing! my mom is the sweetest woman. she is such a blessing!
in other news, i have been seriously dealing with bad depression for a few weeks. i've felt it coming on for the past few months. i just feel so helpless in getting rid of it, but i know the only way to cure myself of it is to do it myself. no pills or drugs or different set of circumstances will fix it--i really believe that it just takes a bigger trust in God and a better attitude. it's SO HARD to change, though... i finally opened up to shaun about it last night and he made me feel so much better about the whole ordeal. he promised that we were going to get through it together and that he was going to closely monitor me to make sure that everything is okay. he is so willing to give of himself to help me and it continually amazes me.
lairen (my adorable roommate) got me this book called "about us," and it's basically a book filled with questions that couples fill out together, and shaun and i loved it so much that we practically finished the whole book today! it felt so good to be so genuinely honest with one another. i was really uncomfortable with it at first, but in the end it just made us love each other more. because through all of the flaws and irritations and pet peeves and mistakes, we still love one another. it's a really incredible thing to realize that.
i've been thinking a lot lately about my future. it freaks me out that my "real life" is starting so soon. jobs? real decisions? PHEW.
this week and next week will be pretty relaxing. only 2 papers and 2 finals!!
i love all of you.
RIP Momma Grant. i never met you, but i've heard so much about you and i know that you were incredibly strong and so very loved by all that you encountered.
in other news, i have been seriously dealing with bad depression for a few weeks. i've felt it coming on for the past few months. i just feel so helpless in getting rid of it, but i know the only way to cure myself of it is to do it myself. no pills or drugs or different set of circumstances will fix it--i really believe that it just takes a bigger trust in God and a better attitude. it's SO HARD to change, though... i finally opened up to shaun about it last night and he made me feel so much better about the whole ordeal. he promised that we were going to get through it together and that he was going to closely monitor me to make sure that everything is okay. he is so willing to give of himself to help me and it continually amazes me.
lairen (my adorable roommate) got me this book called "about us," and it's basically a book filled with questions that couples fill out together, and shaun and i loved it so much that we practically finished the whole book today! it felt so good to be so genuinely honest with one another. i was really uncomfortable with it at first, but in the end it just made us love each other more. because through all of the flaws and irritations and pet peeves and mistakes, we still love one another. it's a really incredible thing to realize that.
i've been thinking a lot lately about my future. it freaks me out that my "real life" is starting so soon. jobs? real decisions? PHEW.
this week and next week will be pretty relaxing. only 2 papers and 2 finals!!
i love all of you.
RIP Momma Grant. i never met you, but i've heard so much about you and i know that you were incredibly strong and so very loved by all that you encountered.