some old myspace blogs - wanted to share
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Let me reach someones heart today
Category: Romance and Relationships
Sometimes I think we get so caught up in ourselves that we forget to look into the eyes of the person who loves us - we forget that that person can not be perfect & that the closer we get to them the more we will realize just how inperfect they really are. That is Human - to be imperfect that is - YEAH - you too are also impefect. LIGHT'N the fuck up & stop focusing on all the bad! Look at the good of each individual person you have decided to be annoyed with at any moment. You choose the path you choose & for once I WISH you'd follow through on something! I wish you wouldnt find it so easy to just throw your decision away. I wish you would STOP thinking that others should be perfect & more importantly - STOP wanting the opposite of what you are getting. I'll tell you what daddy told me
" get off your high horse girl" well his words to me were " I put you on that high horse & I guess I got to be the one to tell you to come down..." Those words were a wake up call for me - not that I dont do some outrageous things still but I lost some of the stubbornness. We've all been hurt - we all put up walls - we all didnt deserve it & BOTH sides of the Fence need to FORGET all that & give every new relationship the devotion it deserves leaving your fears & worries the fuck out of it or you will NEVER find real love - it will walk right out of your life right b4 ur closed fucking eyes.
Men annoy woman as much as woman annoy men - WE ARE DIFFERENT - it will happen. If you are in love with someone when you look at them you should always remember WHAT you love about them. Take a piece of Paper & on the front list all the things you cant stand about the person, on the back write all the things you love about them.....if the good out way the bad - you got a keeper & you should fight.....If the bad out way the good - move on. ( a movie reminded me of this strategy - it's called 'why I got married')It's a exercise you both should do & then after you've had time to reflect on your lists alone - maybe share them especially the good & if you both decided there was more good - start eliminating the bad TOGETHER cuz I bet most those bads are stupid things that can be changed. Most importantly - the thing I am trying to get across the most - MY POINT IS : you got to look at everything from the outside - not just through your side of it. STEP out & think about how they feel and what THEY see about you. Infact....while you are making that list - make one on the good and bad of yourself. I bet anything you can make the GOOD list faster than the bad - if for some of you the bad at all cuz - well honestly you are stuck on yourself. OK - bye
April 3rd 2008
Sometimes ........
Current mood:
hopeful
Category: Life
POEM:
I wana scream
Im weak
Im selfish
Im stupid
I loose focus
I stand on the edge
I loose my temper
I cry & want you to notice
I wounder why I bother
I wounder what I’m doing here
I wounder why these things happen to me
I wounder where Im going
I wounder why Im alive
I wounder what is the point
I hate you
I wounder why people are so stupid
I wana be alone
I wounder where is my silver lining
I want it to be over
I wounder if only then will I really be able to breath
& feel like every day is hell. I just WISH the right person would hear me - not JUST when Im yelling but more importantly when Im not
but then MOSTLY....
I smile
I laugh
I Sing
I dream
I think of how lucky I am
I love you
I push myself to be better
I know Im a good person
Im strong
Im smart
& everyday is a new day. I just WISH the right person would hear me not JUST when Im yelling but more importantly when Im not.
I wish.....
youd praise me
support me
hug me
accept me
hold my hand
realize Im only human & make mistakes
not JUST when Im not yelling but when I am