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i feel bad for having told mike that i only dated him cuz i wanted someone to hang out with. it was a lie, but i was trying to convince him not to care about me being his ex bc there's no point in dwelling on the past; i just want to move on and be happy as friends
he also said something that made me stop and think
he said he didn't just date me cuz i was cute but bc he really liked me. he liked me bc i was nice, sweet, like music and sang well
i feel that lately i haven't been any of those and that makes me sad
i've been stuck in this crappy feeling for a really long time; i haven't really sang for/with him in a long time; i'm nice but not like i used to be; i used to be lots of fun but now i find myself being more dismal every day (i think dismal is the right word; i mean like sad, pessimistic, depressed, sensitive, gloomy, unsatisfied, etc)
i can't wait for xmas break if only to take a break from constantly being alone and trying to over-analyze my relationship with mike, it's draining esp when his feelings are so mixed up. i'm just tried of living the same feelings day in and day out. lol...i haven't updated this much in a long time; it makes me feel better tho so i shall keep doing it
-meow
he also said something that made me stop and think
he said he didn't just date me cuz i was cute but bc he really liked me. he liked me bc i was nice, sweet, like music and sang well
i feel that lately i haven't been any of those and that makes me sad
i've been stuck in this crappy feeling for a really long time; i haven't really sang for/with him in a long time; i'm nice but not like i used to be; i used to be lots of fun but now i find myself being more dismal every day (i think dismal is the right word; i mean like sad, pessimistic, depressed, sensitive, gloomy, unsatisfied, etc)
i can't wait for xmas break if only to take a break from constantly being alone and trying to over-analyze my relationship with mike, it's draining esp when his feelings are so mixed up. i'm just tried of living the same feelings day in and day out. lol...i haven't updated this much in a long time; it makes me feel better tho so i shall keep doing it
-meow