man...not again
shit man
me and mike just had a perfectly lovely afternoon but then i have to make sure that he's not going to stop talking to me for a week again bc he feels uncomfortable
so he left sad, and that hurts but my feelings would have been the ones getting hurt if i hadn't said anything; i know it's hard for him to see my as just a friend (incase of a ex-gf) but i thought that's what he wanted...
either way, i think we had a lot of fun; steak sandwiches, chocolate, beer and fun what more could you ask for on a tuesday afternoon? still there's an unsettaling feeling in the pit of my tummy...i don't want our friendship to go astray again bc it's too emotionally exhausting for me to go thru the weekly drama btw us
i feel bad cuz he told me a lot of things that i've been thinking about too (prior to our convo), but since I was upset at the time, i couldn't communicate that i felt the same way. I don't feel the urge to see him everyday, but i don't understand how friends can be so close and only chill once every two weeks, beats the shit out of me
in the meantime, i'm off to study for an exam. i still need to look for a house, i guess steph isn't coming to MSU next semester...maybe i will move in with marianne...who knows...
me and mike just had a perfectly lovely afternoon but then i have to make sure that he's not going to stop talking to me for a week again bc he feels uncomfortable
so he left sad, and that hurts but my feelings would have been the ones getting hurt if i hadn't said anything; i know it's hard for him to see my as just a friend (incase of a ex-gf) but i thought that's what he wanted...
either way, i think we had a lot of fun; steak sandwiches, chocolate, beer and fun what more could you ask for on a tuesday afternoon? still there's an unsettaling feeling in the pit of my tummy...i don't want our friendship to go astray again bc it's too emotionally exhausting for me to go thru the weekly drama btw us
i feel bad cuz he told me a lot of things that i've been thinking about too (prior to our convo), but since I was upset at the time, i couldn't communicate that i felt the same way. I don't feel the urge to see him everyday, but i don't understand how friends can be so close and only chill once every two weeks, beats the shit out of me
in the meantime, i'm off to study for an exam. i still need to look for a house, i guess steph isn't coming to MSU next semester...maybe i will move in with marianne...who knows...