ME? Running?
If you would have asked me a week or two ago if I, an overweight and clinically "obese" person, would be running at the gym, I'd have laughed and told you to fuck off.
I've always avoided the treadmill at the gym. I would always prefer the elliptical or the bicycles, or lifting weights. I would walk on the treadmill, occassionally, and usually only when the ellipticals were taken, but I WOULD walk on them. But I've always been scared to run. Especially in public. I felt like all eyes were on the big girl trying to run on the treadmill. Even though I know everyone else at the gym is trying to get a work out and not at all concerned about how others look exercising, I just knew I would look stupid trying to run. So I would never do it.
Until 2 weeks ago.
We joined a small gym called 'IronBeach' that is a family-run company. No contracts. No hassle. Cheap prices and personal training. Free aerobics and tanning in the back. Thad and I started going everyday.
The first time I actually ran on this treadmill at the gym I thought I was going to DIE. It's been probably since 6th grade P.E. that I've ran at all. I huffed and puffed and set intervals of running: walk for 2-3 minutes, run for 30 seconds or 1 minute (whatever my legs could handle). Over the days of Week 1, I gradually increased the run-time and decreased the walk-time.
This morning, I sustained 6 minutes of running. Please understand, this is HUGE for me. This afternoon, I was back on the treadmill again. I set the pace, a slow jog, and didn't stop until a mile had passed. I'm so proud of myself! It's very biggest-loser-cheesy, but I had tears in my eyes as I saw 0.99 miles turn into 1.00 and I had run a complete mile without stopping. My heart was about to beat out of my chest, but it felt good. Powerful.
This encouragement came at a good time. I've been feeling like I'm holding us back from having a child. I have to get my BMI down for IVF. I don't necessarily have a time frame to do it in (cut off age is 34, though), but was hoping to start hyperstimulation by the end of June and implantation by July. Looks like it will be closer to August or September, since I haven't been able to lose the weight as fast as I thought. How are people on TV losing like 5-10 lbs per week??? What else can I possibly do? I count calories, count carbs, eat high protein, work out, and PRAY every day. And I gained 2 pounds last week. I just don't understand...
Because of last week's mysterious weight gain, I now have about 23 more lbs to lose, to qualify for IVF. But honestly, I need to lose about 50. I've lost 36 lbs in the last year (was my heaviest ever this time last year!), but have a ways to go and not that much time. Suggestions welcomed.
I just hope I can keep my head together, stay positive and stay focused!!
I've always avoided the treadmill at the gym. I would always prefer the elliptical or the bicycles, or lifting weights. I would walk on the treadmill, occassionally, and usually only when the ellipticals were taken, but I WOULD walk on them. But I've always been scared to run. Especially in public. I felt like all eyes were on the big girl trying to run on the treadmill. Even though I know everyone else at the gym is trying to get a work out and not at all concerned about how others look exercising, I just knew I would look stupid trying to run. So I would never do it.
Until 2 weeks ago.
We joined a small gym called 'IronBeach' that is a family-run company. No contracts. No hassle. Cheap prices and personal training. Free aerobics and tanning in the back. Thad and I started going everyday.
The first time I actually ran on this treadmill at the gym I thought I was going to DIE. It's been probably since 6th grade P.E. that I've ran at all. I huffed and puffed and set intervals of running: walk for 2-3 minutes, run for 30 seconds or 1 minute (whatever my legs could handle). Over the days of Week 1, I gradually increased the run-time and decreased the walk-time.
This morning, I sustained 6 minutes of running. Please understand, this is HUGE for me. This afternoon, I was back on the treadmill again. I set the pace, a slow jog, and didn't stop until a mile had passed. I'm so proud of myself! It's very biggest-loser-cheesy, but I had tears in my eyes as I saw 0.99 miles turn into 1.00 and I had run a complete mile without stopping. My heart was about to beat out of my chest, but it felt good. Powerful.
This encouragement came at a good time. I've been feeling like I'm holding us back from having a child. I have to get my BMI down for IVF. I don't necessarily have a time frame to do it in (cut off age is 34, though), but was hoping to start hyperstimulation by the end of June and implantation by July. Looks like it will be closer to August or September, since I haven't been able to lose the weight as fast as I thought. How are people on TV losing like 5-10 lbs per week??? What else can I possibly do? I count calories, count carbs, eat high protein, work out, and PRAY every day. And I gained 2 pounds last week. I just don't understand...
Because of last week's mysterious weight gain, I now have about 23 more lbs to lose, to qualify for IVF. But honestly, I need to lose about 50. I've lost 36 lbs in the last year (was my heaviest ever this time last year!), but have a ways to go and not that much time. Suggestions welcomed.
I just hope I can keep my head together, stay positive and stay focused!!