Action may not always bring happiness; but there is no happiness without action.
I like to have the future laid out for me, or at least a general road map so I won’t get lost in this world.
This year definitely needs to be about my well-being and rejuvenating my soul.
The first thing to do is continue seeing my counselor at home, he’s been extremely insightful and now it’s just a matter of putting his thoughts into actions.
When I’m at school, I’ll be able to get a referral to a psychologist who has experience in working with women who have gone through various losses. There is no question that I was negatively affected by my early miscarriage. I need to learn how to manage my anger, sadness and anxiety about the experience (and past events that still are raw in my heart). Also, getting an insight in to why I couldn’t be honest with myself or others about it would also help as well.
Another thing I would like to do is get involved at the women’s centre (a suggestion from a good friend, Mackenzie). I don’t know how in tune I am with women’s issues…however; this would be a good learning experience for me. There are various support groups for girls/women who have been through traumatic events that have affected/altered their lives, so in that respect maybe I won’t feel so alone there.
Staying physically fit also helps out in maintaining your emotional health. So, I got a Y membership and I will definitely make use of the facility.
Also, I’m getting involved in the International Development Association and am looking in to volunteering for a local organization that focuses on children’s advocacy (especially those with various disabilities). After working with Community Living this summer, I’ve realized the importance of building inclusive communities.
Perhaps with a bit of luck and action, I hope that I’ll be peace with all that I’ve experienced. As Laura said, there is beauty in breakdown, a chance to rebuild the pieces and watch them grow and heal and appreciate the journey.
One day at a time…