Life is kinda funny sometimes...
So to tell the truth, it has been quite sometime since I had gone to read up on Journals... I post a thing here or there and just kinda do it out of boredom I think. Truth be told I dont think about my journal much.. but as weird as it is, and life being funny as I mentioned. I'm sitting here at Neil's house, waiting for him to get done with work. I decided to look and see what he had up on his computer.. I shut down a web site accidently -_-; and went into history to look it up again. I see that he had visited Josh's Journal... I guess it was curiosity.. but I hadnt looked at it for some time now.. I think I went there a while ago.. but hadnt checked back recently.. okay okay on with it you say right? okay.. so weird thing is Josh had a post about how different life is etc. and I sat and read it.. and in a way.. its sad.. i think about things sometimes as well.. but really.. honestly.. I felt so happy.. tear in eyes happy that he is okay. I dont know, but he is a great guy.. I just wanted him to be happy.. just as long as he could be happy.. Im glad to read about Renee. Im glad he is in love.. Im glad for what ever reason it happened it did that I happened to read his journal again today..
If you see this Josh.. Im sorry about Nachoo..
I have to say as well.. I couldnt be happier with my life.. and I look forward to all the things I have left to do.. I couldnt love neil more.. but some how everyday I wake up and realize I do. Its weird to feel so full of hope and love.. just to look at someone.. to feel so much energy.. like a rush.. just to see them.. and to hear them say I love you too. I dont know why it still feels like such a shock sometimes to hear neil say he loves me, he does it every chance he can.. but its still so sweet to hear. I was laying in bed this morning..listing to him take a shower.. and I knew as I was laying there that it was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life.. I wanted to simply be with him.. to see him in the morning like that.. to sleep next to him. I look forward to moving..scary as it is.. but none the less I want this so much.. I feel like my whole world has shifted.. and its nice.
If you see this Josh.. Im sorry about Nachoo..
I have to say as well.. I couldnt be happier with my life.. and I look forward to all the things I have left to do.. I couldnt love neil more.. but some how everyday I wake up and realize I do. Its weird to feel so full of hope and love.. just to look at someone.. to feel so much energy.. like a rush.. just to see them.. and to hear them say I love you too. I dont know why it still feels like such a shock sometimes to hear neil say he loves me, he does it every chance he can.. but its still so sweet to hear. I was laying in bed this morning..listing to him take a shower.. and I knew as I was laying there that it was what I wanted to do for the rest of my life.. I wanted to simply be with him.. to see him in the morning like that.. to sleep next to him. I look forward to moving..scary as it is.. but none the less I want this so much.. I feel like my whole world has shifted.. and its nice.