Insomnia Ramblings

[curemywellness]

I always pretend that everything is fine. Then I break down. I tell myself each time that I'm going to talk to my boyfriend about it. I thought this last night, and this is how I talked about it "Oh yeah, I cut last night." That was it. The end. No elaboration. Everybody thinks that things are going good for me. I mean, I guess, on the surface they are. I got into the online school, I'm losing weight, I'm quitting cutting, cigarettes are of easy access, along with weed...But in reality, things are just royally sucking right now.

I feel so alone and isolated. Nobody gets it, nobody understands. And how could they? I won't let them in.

I just wish this would end.
I really do.