We broke up.

[curemywellness]

Well, i broke up with him techinically.

I finally got it out of him why he wanted to go on a break, he said because he didn't know if he wanted to be in a relationship, because he'd been in serious relationships for the past four years. I understand, but...I thought he loved me more than anything...I thought that's what he said...I asked him how long he wanted to be on a break, he said a few weeks, a month maybe. so I told him that I thought we should just break up and whenever he figures everything out we can talk to see if we want to get back together.

I miss him already.

This hurts more than anything.

I've been crying all night. Why was I so stupid? Why did I let myself fall in love with someone? Why did I let him hurt me? Why? This is all my fault.

I must have cried a river by now.

I've never felt like this before. I never got close enough to any guy to let him hurt me.

I don't know what to do.

We are staying friends. I don't know how I'll stand that.

Tomorrow is Easter, I'm expected to be happy.

I want to die. I hate myself. Why did I let this happen? Why?