Brokeback Grandaughter
Your typical laundry list is plaguing my life. I'm in pain though. I miss my Grandfather really bad. I didn't want people to know that because I felt silly for a while. I felt as though it wasn't right because he wasn't my father but the further away he feels the more I realize how much he effected my life. He taught me a lot but that's not even the big problem. The big problem is that I just want to hug him so bad and kiss him and say "I love you Grandpa. See you this weekend." He really was one of my best friends. What makes me feel better is wearing my Grandpa's plaid shirt or even just hugging it close to me. I feel like Heath Ledger at the end of Brokeback mountain, after Jake Gyllenhal dies, and Heath just sits alone all the time holding onto his plaid shirt. I never lost anyone who I was this close to. This world is so screwed up with war, hunger and greed and its all on my mind. Missing my Grandfather makes me feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.