where did that come from?
I went on a fordham retreat this weekend. I went on the same one last year, its called emmaus. (remember "dont shit on my emmaus?") Well last year i left the retreat feeling enlightened from the entire experience because I had gotten back in touch with my faith and with God. I considered it one of the most valuable experiences I ever had but that was before I went on this emmaus. I cannot possibly begin to explain everything that has happened to me over the past 48 hours or so but I have found that I am in a re-creation phase. My faith was shaped by my parents but my faith can no longer be the same as theirs. I cannot believe I am a criminal for crimes uncommitted. I am barely living my life. Who set me up with these standards? Why am I in bed no later than my mom and why I am so afraid of everything? God would not lead me anywhere from which light could not be found. He is on my side and I let others make me believe that he would turn his back on me. He's been with me all along. It is hard to embrace that quiet feeling of someones hand on your chest as you fall asleep alone. If we can quiet our minds for long enough to believe we know God is by our sides at all times. I share with you a favorite story of mine:
A lady passes on from a serious illness and enters into heaven after talking to St.Peter. She meets God and he welcomes her into his arms although she looks someone dismayed. God says "Welcome my child. Let me show you your life." Before her immediately appeared a beach and more specifically a shore line with soft, wet sand. In the sand there were footprints. God said "This is your life." The woman asked "Why are there two sets of footprints?" God said "Because I was walking with you." The woman looked further down the beach and became frustrated. She turned and asked "Well what about the parts where there are only one set of foot prints? Those were the hardest times! Where were you then?" God looked lovingly on the woman and replied, "I was carrying you."
My darlings, you are evreyone of you in my heart. When things are too difficult to bare, know that your faith will carry you...and I'm here too.
A lady passes on from a serious illness and enters into heaven after talking to St.Peter. She meets God and he welcomes her into his arms although she looks someone dismayed. God says "Welcome my child. Let me show you your life." Before her immediately appeared a beach and more specifically a shore line with soft, wet sand. In the sand there were footprints. God said "This is your life." The woman asked "Why are there two sets of footprints?" God said "Because I was walking with you." The woman looked further down the beach and became frustrated. She turned and asked "Well what about the parts where there are only one set of foot prints? Those were the hardest times! Where were you then?" God looked lovingly on the woman and replied, "I was carrying you."
My darlings, you are evreyone of you in my heart. When things are too difficult to bare, know that your faith will carry you...and I'm here too.