Remix Redux IV: "Having to Live" by cupidsbow

[cupidsbow]

Title: Having to Live (The Dying Inside Funky Remix)
Author: cupidsbow
Fandom: Battlestar Galactica 2003
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kara/Lee
Spoilers: Mini-series
For: remixredux 2006
Original story: Having Someone to Live For by ALC Punk!
Summary: Lee doesn't understand that he'd been dead to them.

Comments

[maharetr]

Just... so damn tired of having to live. Even breathing feels like an effort of will. But she makes it: in, one two, out, three four.

She's had a lot of practice at this part.

After a while she gets tired of looking at the same empty stretch of corridor, so she wipes her face with the back of her hand and goes off to find something less self-destructive to do.

*wibbles* This is fabulous...

[cupidsbow]

Oh, thank you, sweetheart. I'm glad it hit your spot.

[lobelia321]

I haven't even read yet but you overcame the anxiety!!! Yay!!!!!!

[cupidsbow]

I really wish I had, but I wrote this before that. :(

[lobelia321]

Oh no! Overcome! I found the writing exercises helped me, they were rather freeing. And then Sheldrake posted hers in my LJ to avoid posting angst and to 'hide'. You could try that? I would love more people to come in on the writing exercises; that would be such great fun.

[cupidsbow]

I've been thinking about it. But actually, real life has been pretty full-on in the last couple of weeks and I haven't even had much time to read, let alone write. Maybe that's a good thing. Maybe when I finally get a chance to sit down and write again, I'll be hungry for it.

[after_the_rain_]

Once he's safely out of sight, Kara slumps back against the wall, feeling wrecked. Just... so damn tired of having to live. Even breathing feels like an effort of will. But she makes it: in, one two, out, three four.

She's had a lot of practice at this part.

After a while she gets tired of looking at the same empty stretch of corridor, so she wipes her face with the back of her hand and goes off to find something less self-destructive to do.

I probably have said this before, but your imagry and use of words slays me with every fic I read of yours.

*adds to quote list*

[cupidsbow]

Thank you for taking the time to feedback on this story. It was written for the remix, and I wasn't entirely happy with it, so it's especially nice to know it works.

[after_the_rain_]

It works really well in my opinion. I need to go read the original story too. :)

[sarvs]

I love the urgency in this fic. And you have really captured the interplay between sexual tension and hesistancy/caution between Starbuck and Apollo. You have captured a great moment in time in the series.

[cupidsbow]

Thank you! That means a lot. This was one of my early remixes and I didn't really know how to do it yet.