Its Been A Long Time
well here i am ... i dont know why.. im at the job on the computer so that i can do my 4hr class and my written test,but this sucks its sooooooo boring!
My life sucks nothing new... its been so hard this past month.... i feel like ive lost a sister a best friend and so much more all in one.... things that were done and things that were said hurt so much!!! but not only that things that i read were extremly hurtful! its like it all never really matter , i feel like i was just there to pass time and not to be someone who could be trusted, or there to help or just to have fun! people tell me i should just let it go... but i cant not her, no matter what i mean to her... she still means alot to me, i still love her with all my heart!!!... and yeah we both fucked up in our own ways but damn... it happens and that should be forgivin... i dunno ive been crying and crying this past month ... and its getting the best of me ... shits all going down hill and the one person i want to turn to who i trust is no longer there ... IT SUCKS ...
im scared to call... i dont wanna yell, i dont want to fight... i just wanna be like before....i guess its to much to ask!
i sat and read all of u letters the other day..HA... the shit we talked about... my 50 million guys... our boring ass class where you'd bounce right out of ur chair... or texted to get the answers to the test... or little runs to bk
its hard to think that it all could be gone and so quikly! every thing we did and everywhere we went is a memorie... i cant be no where with out thinking "hey remember that time we" and just laughing... jannier knows it bothers me i talk about it all the time...
i try to act like im okay ... but its always there... i guess i wasnt as close as someone else was to her heart....we never got to spend much time together or do thing together,or we were sooooo busy that when we had free time other people occupied that as well...
being the person that i am my reaction would be to give up...but i wont not on this!you know who im talking about!!!
if you think we can fix things ... call me...
p.s but not o my cell its turned off cuz i have no money for that... my car is taking up all da money!
im out.... Good morning, Good afternoon, and Good night!
My life sucks nothing new... its been so hard this past month.... i feel like ive lost a sister a best friend and so much more all in one.... things that were done and things that were said hurt so much!!! but not only that things that i read were extremly hurtful! its like it all never really matter , i feel like i was just there to pass time and not to be someone who could be trusted, or there to help or just to have fun! people tell me i should just let it go... but i cant not her, no matter what i mean to her... she still means alot to me, i still love her with all my heart!!!... and yeah we both fucked up in our own ways but damn... it happens and that should be forgivin... i dunno ive been crying and crying this past month ... and its getting the best of me ... shits all going down hill and the one person i want to turn to who i trust is no longer there ... IT SUCKS ...
im scared to call... i dont wanna yell, i dont want to fight... i just wanna be like before....i guess its to much to ask!
i sat and read all of u letters the other day..HA... the shit we talked about... my 50 million guys... our boring ass class where you'd bounce right out of ur chair... or texted to get the answers to the test... or little runs to bk
its hard to think that it all could be gone and so quikly! every thing we did and everywhere we went is a memorie... i cant be no where with out thinking "hey remember that time we" and just laughing... jannier knows it bothers me i talk about it all the time...
i try to act like im okay ... but its always there... i guess i wasnt as close as someone else was to her heart....we never got to spend much time together or do thing together,or we were sooooo busy that when we had free time other people occupied that as well...
being the person that i am my reaction would be to give up...but i wont not on this!you know who im talking about!!!
if you think we can fix things ... call me...
p.s but not o my cell its turned off cuz i have no money for that... my car is taking up all da money!
im out.... Good morning, Good afternoon, and Good night!