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Sometimes I know, you can read my mind
Deep down inside where my fears are hiding
Whisper so tender the way that you do
There’s a love that’s forever I’ve found in you
I know sometimes, I ask you for the moon
Reach for a star and I long to hold you
How could this love be so simple for you
Then you reach out and touch me
And suddenly I see
All that I need is you
Always forever with you
I feel your love and I realize
All I ever need was you
Just you
You’re all I ever needed
Once in a while a dream will come true
A moment in time created by you
Things less important start falling away
There’s a truth down inside me
And I hear my heart
I remember a time
Love was so hard to find
I was never really satisfied needing what I just denied
Oh, but now I see
So I began this LJ today and then I brushed it aside b/c of some friends,but here I am sitting right where I am supposed to be writing what the Lord has placed in my heart.It's been a while since I have sat down and really cried out to my God and truly thanked him.Not the daily "Father please bless my family and friends" kind of prayer.It was a deep conversation with my Lord and reading Timmy's livejournal everyday and seeing how much it has affected Rachel,Anna,and Allyson.It makes me take a good hard look at myself and I see all of the wrong I have done and I have witnessed so many sins and commited and such and I have never paid any mind to them.I have never voiced my faith and love for God on LJ like others I have always used it to complain,gossip,or talk about a guy.It's so hard for me and I am sure all of us to live these double lives.And reading these confessions that Timmy writes it is astonishing and it's like "wow,what happened to me?I used to be like that until High School." How have I not stayed true to my Lord?How have I let these childish hour highs replace my morals?How have I let what people think about me cloud the way of our Almighty Lord and Savior?And why is this coming to me right now?I guess everyone cares from time to time about what others say about them and its hard to not let it affect you.Very hard.And as much as I wish that I didn't care, I know that I will always care.It's just a burden that everyone carries.It is so sad that my own Faith and Knowledge didn't let me see this it took other people and MISTAKES to realize all of this.And you know the sad thing is that we all know we are doing wrong and no matter what we say, two weeks from now we will be trying to find a way to do more wrong and then ask for forgivness.How can our awsome God love fools so much?For us teenagers,I see the forbiden fruit as Alchol and Drugs.For us it just such a hard thing to say no to when we have someone whispering in our ear saying its okay he'll forgive you anyways.And you know right now I sit astonished and in tears from how naive I have been this past year,how stupid I have acted.I am so scared that one day God will say no more to my sins and say for once that he doesn't forgive me and everyone else.I know that will never happen but just think what if?
Deep down inside where my fears are hiding
Whisper so tender the way that you do
There’s a love that’s forever I’ve found in you
I know sometimes, I ask you for the moon
Reach for a star and I long to hold you
How could this love be so simple for you
Then you reach out and touch me
And suddenly I see
All that I need is you
Always forever with you
I feel your love and I realize
All I ever need was you
Just you
You’re all I ever needed
Once in a while a dream will come true
A moment in time created by you
Things less important start falling away
There’s a truth down inside me
And I hear my heart
I remember a time
Love was so hard to find
I was never really satisfied needing what I just denied
Oh, but now I see
So I began this LJ today and then I brushed it aside b/c of some friends,but here I am sitting right where I am supposed to be writing what the Lord has placed in my heart.It's been a while since I have sat down and really cried out to my God and truly thanked him.Not the daily "Father please bless my family and friends" kind of prayer.It was a deep conversation with my Lord and reading Timmy's livejournal everyday and seeing how much it has affected Rachel,Anna,and Allyson.It makes me take a good hard look at myself and I see all of the wrong I have done and I have witnessed so many sins and commited and such and I have never paid any mind to them.I have never voiced my faith and love for God on LJ like others I have always used it to complain,gossip,or talk about a guy.It's so hard for me and I am sure all of us to live these double lives.And reading these confessions that Timmy writes it is astonishing and it's like "wow,what happened to me?I used to be like that until High School." How have I not stayed true to my Lord?How have I let these childish hour highs replace my morals?How have I let what people think about me cloud the way of our Almighty Lord and Savior?And why is this coming to me right now?I guess everyone cares from time to time about what others say about them and its hard to not let it affect you.Very hard.And as much as I wish that I didn't care, I know that I will always care.It's just a burden that everyone carries.It is so sad that my own Faith and Knowledge didn't let me see this it took other people and MISTAKES to realize all of this.And you know the sad thing is that we all know we are doing wrong and no matter what we say, two weeks from now we will be trying to find a way to do more wrong and then ask for forgivness.How can our awsome God love fools so much?For us teenagers,I see the forbiden fruit as Alchol and Drugs.For us it just such a hard thing to say no to when we have someone whispering in our ear saying its okay he'll forgive you anyways.And you know right now I sit astonished and in tears from how naive I have been this past year,how stupid I have acted.I am so scared that one day God will say no more to my sins and say for once that he doesn't forgive me and everyone else.I know that will never happen but just think what if?