i dont believe this
i dont believe this
Current mood: sad
Category: Romance and Relationships
a click happened...and its still clicked, but its one sided. and i dont freaking know what to do...
im swiftly losing the person i fell so fast and so hard for...to distance, to the marines?! and to heartache...a choice was made to involve me in something that just wasnt ripe yet. and now its killing me.
i dont know what to do.
i have wonderful friends to carry me through this but they're not around at this moment, when im falling apart.
im a burden, im clinging, im whining and moaning, and im begging like a groupie...im horrible for placing all this pressure on him. actually horrible.
im falling apart, what do i DO?
i havent felt anything like this yet...i dont know if i will again. they say true love never dies..if you feel your love dying, know that it wasnt true..if you feel new love growing, DONT IGNORE it....what if you miss the one that you're supposed to be with??
God im falling apart.
and im such a burden, i dont know if i can call anyone or anything.
i wish i couldnt feel this at all. i wish i could be happy , and we could be happy, with or without each other. with or without the past love.
why the hell are you leaving?what are you running from? me? her?
the thought of me being something good for you?
the thought of being in something secure again? of being cared for unconditionally?
my age??
i lose people so often..literally at the rate of one or two per..month. not necessarily in the same fashion. some to death, senility, distance, or simple ignorance. but this was love, for me at least. and what if it was the love that was SUPPOSED to sustain me forever? then i am screwed.
royally.
i'll wait. i cant help but wait because this is where my heart is TIED.
but its killing me
Current mood: sad
Category: Romance and Relationships
a click happened...and its still clicked, but its one sided. and i dont freaking know what to do...
im swiftly losing the person i fell so fast and so hard for...to distance, to the marines?! and to heartache...a choice was made to involve me in something that just wasnt ripe yet. and now its killing me.
i dont know what to do.
i have wonderful friends to carry me through this but they're not around at this moment, when im falling apart.
im a burden, im clinging, im whining and moaning, and im begging like a groupie...im horrible for placing all this pressure on him. actually horrible.
im falling apart, what do i DO?
i havent felt anything like this yet...i dont know if i will again. they say true love never dies..if you feel your love dying, know that it wasnt true..if you feel new love growing, DONT IGNORE it....what if you miss the one that you're supposed to be with??
God im falling apart.
and im such a burden, i dont know if i can call anyone or anything.
i wish i couldnt feel this at all. i wish i could be happy , and we could be happy, with or without each other. with or without the past love.
why the hell are you leaving?what are you running from? me? her?
the thought of me being something good for you?
the thought of being in something secure again? of being cared for unconditionally?
my age??
i lose people so often..literally at the rate of one or two per..month. not necessarily in the same fashion. some to death, senility, distance, or simple ignorance. but this was love, for me at least. and what if it was the love that was SUPPOSED to sustain me forever? then i am screwed.
royally.
i'll wait. i cant help but wait because this is where my heart is TIED.
but its killing me