everybody hertz
i'm drained.Yesterday was a day of epic long blood tests, bad news, and well, more bad news. My blood pressure is high, my chest pains are more prominent, and now I'm getting prescribed loads of crap for ....anxiety, Where the fuck did that come from?!
I'm so unhappy right now. I'm worried. I think it's all going to hell, but I'm sure it's all my fault and I'm hurting him and I'm hurting myself, and I want out, but I want to stay... I love you, but I don't know what to do. I'm going to sit here and cry today. I need to go out and get a job, though. I can't get things into perspective, I can't function, I need us to be okay. I don't think I'm okay with anyone right now though. :[
I'm so unhappy right now. I'm worried. I think it's all going to hell, but I'm sure it's all my fault and I'm hurting him and I'm hurting myself, and I want out, but I want to stay... I love you, but I don't know what to do. I'm going to sit here and cry today. I need to go out and get a job, though. I can't get things into perspective, I can't function, I need us to be okay. I don't think I'm okay with anyone right now though. :[