What an Emotional Rollercoaster.
I seriously didn’t expect to be anywhere near this sad on my last day.
I haven’t made any sort of plan for this long post… so expect something somewhat chronological mixed in with a whole lot of emotional ramble.
Of course, the class I’m most attached to is my Japanese class… so I wanted to do something for them… and what does everybody love? Food of course ^^!! So I set out in the morning to city to buy something for them♡!
But of course.. a day can’t be a usual Annie day without my Dad ruining it somehow… and in the morning he chucked a fit at me, askin why I need to go to school to waste time (he overheard me on the phone talking about how today would be dedicated to farewelling NSG), when I should stay at home preparing for school in China. So my mum kinda snuck me out of the house… So I spent my busride cursing my bitch of a father under my breath.
Getting to city… I went to Thaikee.. and ended up buying this massive bag of Pocky♡!!! And Lipton Milk Tea - which has finally, after a long long wait, returned to Sydney ^^! And then I trained off to school. Halfway through my trainride.. guess what PANDA (my iPod) decided to play to me?? Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever). Aiya, I swear, that song has some magical power to make people ry.. so I started bawling in the middleof the carriage. Shibaaaa ><;;!
Okay, well, I got to school a little early.. and walked around, stll too chicken to face the teachers I’d lost the textbooks of.. and I bumped into Ester and Yish. PERFECT. I didn’t really have any intention of explaining to every NSG that I was going, and face all the ‘why?’s and ‘what about HSC?’s.. so.. you know.. I know I can trust them to make sure everyone knows by recess. And guess what? My prediction was right ;).
Anyways.. period 2 came.. and time to visit Ms K. I really wished I could have thanked her more for caring so much and trying to look out for me so much, and said a proper sorry for making her worry so much and causing her so much troube.. but my tongue seemed caught and what I wanted to say just seemed to not be able to transfer from thought to speech. So we had a short chat about my plans, how I should take care.. and then I went off.
Still feeling unable to face the chaos of people surrounding me, and the hugs and goodbyes.. I grabbed a newspaper and left the school for a bit. You see.. It’s nothing against nybody at all, I just can’t handle a lot of attention.. and the more focus there was on me leaving, the more upset I would have gotten. But that half hour rolled into oblivion, and, holding my breath, I returned to school…
Trying to be as inconspicuous as possible, I went to the Dblock toilets.. only to be interrupted in the middle of my private business by a familiar voice.. “Annie, I know you’re in there!!” Wahh.. Cissy !! So she kindly waited for me to finish, then took me outside to wait for ‘the surprise’. So, I sat with my group.. ♡. OMG people thought I had left the group last term because I was never there anymore.. and aiyaa.. I feel so guilty for not even lettinf them know what’s been going on until now but I was so caught up in my own problems.. and and.. They’re just all so sweet, and still willing to do stuff for me and spend time with me even though I’ve pretty much barred them for a term and a half.. and aiya.. I feel so guilty and grateful and I really do love them so much >__<;;;! I spent about 10min explaining to Dana my leaving circumstances before 3rd period began.. and then I brought her to Mathematics.
I then hunted down Juliana in the library, and we bummed for a while, waiting for Daisy to finish her computing exam.. Ahh, Juliana, it’s so easy to talk to ou! About nothihng in particular.. maybe it’s because we’ve been friends for so long.. I don’t know, but you always make me feel so comfortable ^^;! Anyway, we were on a kindof wild goose chase, and we bumped into Wyntane who offered to help look for Daisy.. Wow, I haven’t talked to that girl for SO long o__o;;. Anyways, I finally found Daisy, and it turned out she’d been looking all over for me!! ><;; Aiya. So we talked for a hile until.. Cissy came back! With the entire Jap class and half the dropouts from last year.. with THE MOST AWESOME GOING AWAY GIFT EVER. Omg I really do love you guys >___<;;! I think it was Cissy, Seung, Julia, Amy, Liz, Fiona, Sam, Evee, Sophia.. and I’m sorry if I haven’t written your name and you were there to help out.. now let me describe the gift. They made this sky mobile.. it’s a cloud shaped cardboard, with clouds and a sunshine on top saying “Annie, Thankyou for being our sunshine!” And below os hanging heaps of cranes on strings, and there’s rain behind them, sayng “There’s rain in everyone’s love, but we know YOU have the strength to overcome it!”. Like seriously, I mean seriously, I will be able to look at the mobile when I’m feeling down and be able to smile. Thankyou!!
So we stood around a while.. and Cissy took me away to give me a heartfelt going away speech.. Ahh, Cissy, I do love you so! You’ve always been so sweet to me, and you’re such an amazingly caring, genuinely kind, positive person.. I feel so humbled by.. I dunno.. you’re goodness? =). But seriously, I really think you’re the type of person I should strive to be like. Thankyou so much for everything - for caring and worrying for me.. and aiya. You made me feel really special today. Thankyou.
After that, I went to find Daisy and Melinda at the Career Advisor’s office.. and waah it was so crowded with year 10s! ><;;. I talked to Shelia for a bit.. and then decided I needed to see my group again, so I ran downstairs and showed them my mobile.. and OMG THEY’RE GONNA COME SEE ME OFF!! THEY’RE COMING TO THE AIRPORT TO SEE ME OFF!! DANA, AOLLY, VEIN, JANET AND BEL ARE COMING TO THE AIRPORT TO FAREWELL ME. And omggg >___<;;. You guys are too good to me.. But wait til I surprise you guys ;D.
Daisy finished with the careers advisor and came down with Melinda to see me.. and we sat and talked for a bit.. until there was the dreaded announcement.. “could all year 11s please assemble in the quad.” OMFG. That was my cue to BOLT. So I did. But like Dana had warned me the night before, there are mny people who can run faster than me. In this case, it was Dana who grabbed me and dragged me, bag and mobile gift and all, back to the quad. WAIIII >___<;;;!! And suddenly there’s this 360 degree human barricade of people hugging me even BEFORE the hokey pokey begns. And when they finally dispersed, what do you know ? The year 11s had assembled.
What happened next doesn’t need to be described to any NSG.. it was the usually, get pushed and glomped and hugged and cried on and jumped on.. and in the end it’s just like a human mosh pit and Shelia joined in even though she’s year 10 lol =b. But then again, it’s a good way of making sure I get to say goodbye to everyone. I gave Cissy like five hugs, and Ester got many hugs too.. and Sarah got a super long hug and she started crying and omgg >___<;; Sarah, I love you heaps, and you’re always there for me, always helping me put my situation into perspective.. I really wish we could’ve spent more time together.. I will definitely remember what you’ve told me, all the advice, and become a happier person =).
Then, when the crowd thinned a little.. uwaahhhh ~ Sensei is here!! I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I was leaving earlier, Sensei. and I know you’ve been worrying too.. so I have Sensei a big hug.. and then Cissy dragged me out of the middle because it was time to go to class.. and I saw Ms K.. and gave her a big hug too. Then I turn around and it’s my group waiting for me.. so we had a massive group hug.. and it was really one of the warmest yet.
So then it was time to go to Japanese class and I had a whole escort to take me there.. ♡. We spent about 40min talking about my trip and China and just everything, before I had to go sign out.
And what a speedy sign out it was! It took about half an hour.. and in the movement between 4th and 5th period, I bumped into Shelia again! Wah.. we must have some sort of fatal attraction♡! So I gave her a hug, and ooh, something a little special - I got to hug Joey too =D! Actually, I’ve admired Joey a long time for various reasons, but never talked to her at school, except for a few ‘hi’s.. so yes. That was pretty special!! ^^
And then I went to bum with Daisy and Melineda in a Bblock room before heading to bus stop. Daisy left early.. but that’s okay, I’m seeing her for a long long while tomorrow. ButI gave Melinda a long last hug and big thankyou and omg, yes, I will miss bitching about *nameofperson* with you! But keep any polans for ruining that person’s life in hand and I will help you if you ever need it :D!
So I waited for two buses and missed them both because Sarah seemed to be taking her time.. and then I rang her and WTF she was like 2m away, separated by the busstop timber wall. WTFLOL. So we got on the bus, and had a talk with Frances about China, and she told me stories of her ideas of leaving the country and so forth.. it gave me a brighter view on moving to China.
We got off, and me and Sarah had our last walk from Wynyard to Townhall.. Waahh.. TT__________TT;;. We just joked about things and going to China and ways to behave and everything.. And you know, that, as our last talk in person was better than any of the times I’ve ranted to youor let out my feelings on you, because that’s just how I wish my everyday to be.. just talking and joking while doing ordinary day-to-day things..
… and then off to meet the two lovely girls, Apple and Janice♡♡♡!! They came with me to Kinokuniya to buy textbooks and magazine and Easyway and then I REALLY had to go.
On the bus home… I suppose that’s when it really started to hit me that I was going. while I was doing Sudoku.. like.. I will never see these people again. I will never see NSG again. Or at least.. I won’t be able to spend any substantial amount of time with these people or places anymore. And like.. after all this time of not being at school.. I still find I’m going to miss everyone so much.. man. It just goes to prove.. It’s true. You can never appreciate what you’ve got til it’s gone.
I haven’t made any sort of plan for this long post… so expect something somewhat chronological mixed in with a whole lot of emotional ramble.
Of course, the class I’m most attached to is my Japanese class… so I wanted to do something for them… and what does everybody love? Food of course ^^!! So I set out in the morning to city to buy something for them♡!
But of course.. a day can’t be a usual Annie day without my Dad ruining it somehow… and in the morning he chucked a fit at me, askin why I need to go to school to waste time (he overheard me on the phone talking about how today would be dedicated to farewelling NSG), when I should stay at home preparing for school in China. So my mum kinda snuck me out of the house… So I spent my busride cursing my bitch of a father under my breath.
Getting to city… I went to Thaikee.. and ended up buying this massive bag of Pocky♡!!! And Lipton Milk Tea - which has finally, after a long long wait, returned to Sydney ^^! And then I trained off to school. Halfway through my trainride.. guess what PANDA (my iPod) decided to play to me?? Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever). Aiya, I swear, that song has some magical power to make people ry.. so I started bawling in the middleof the carriage. Shibaaaa ><;;!
Okay, well, I got to school a little early.. and walked around, stll too chicken to face the teachers I’d lost the textbooks of.. and I bumped into Ester and Yish. PERFECT. I didn’t really have any intention of explaining to every NSG that I was going, and face all the ‘why?’s and ‘what about HSC?’s.. so.. you know.. I know I can trust them to make sure everyone knows by recess. And guess what? My prediction was right ;).
Anyways.. period 2 came.. and time to visit Ms K. I really wished I could have thanked her more for caring so much and trying to look out for me so much, and said a proper sorry for making her worry so much and causing her so much troube.. but my tongue seemed caught and what I wanted to say just seemed to not be able to transfer from thought to speech. So we had a short chat about my plans, how I should take care.. and then I went off.
Still feeling unable to face the chaos of people surrounding me, and the hugs and goodbyes.. I grabbed a newspaper and left the school for a bit. You see.. It’s nothing against nybody at all, I just can’t handle a lot of attention.. and the more focus there was on me leaving, the more upset I would have gotten. But that half hour rolled into oblivion, and, holding my breath, I returned to school…
Trying to be as inconspicuous as possible, I went to the Dblock toilets.. only to be interrupted in the middle of my private business by a familiar voice.. “Annie, I know you’re in there!!” Wahh.. Cissy !! So she kindly waited for me to finish, then took me outside to wait for ‘the surprise’. So, I sat with my group.. ♡. OMG people thought I had left the group last term because I was never there anymore.. and aiyaa.. I feel so guilty for not even lettinf them know what’s been going on until now but I was so caught up in my own problems.. and and.. They’re just all so sweet, and still willing to do stuff for me and spend time with me even though I’ve pretty much barred them for a term and a half.. and aiya.. I feel so guilty and grateful and I really do love them so much >__<;;;! I spent about 10min explaining to Dana my leaving circumstances before 3rd period began.. and then I brought her to Mathematics.
I then hunted down Juliana in the library, and we bummed for a while, waiting for Daisy to finish her computing exam.. Ahh, Juliana, it’s so easy to talk to ou! About nothihng in particular.. maybe it’s because we’ve been friends for so long.. I don’t know, but you always make me feel so comfortable ^^;! Anyway, we were on a kindof wild goose chase, and we bumped into Wyntane who offered to help look for Daisy.. Wow, I haven’t talked to that girl for SO long o__o;;. Anyways, I finally found Daisy, and it turned out she’d been looking all over for me!! ><;; Aiya. So we talked for a hile until.. Cissy came back! With the entire Jap class and half the dropouts from last year.. with THE MOST AWESOME GOING AWAY GIFT EVER. Omg I really do love you guys >___<;;! I think it was Cissy, Seung, Julia, Amy, Liz, Fiona, Sam, Evee, Sophia.. and I’m sorry if I haven’t written your name and you were there to help out.. now let me describe the gift. They made this sky mobile.. it’s a cloud shaped cardboard, with clouds and a sunshine on top saying “Annie, Thankyou for being our sunshine!” And below os hanging heaps of cranes on strings, and there’s rain behind them, sayng “There’s rain in everyone’s love, but we know YOU have the strength to overcome it!”. Like seriously, I mean seriously, I will be able to look at the mobile when I’m feeling down and be able to smile. Thankyou!!
So we stood around a while.. and Cissy took me away to give me a heartfelt going away speech.. Ahh, Cissy, I do love you so! You’ve always been so sweet to me, and you’re such an amazingly caring, genuinely kind, positive person.. I feel so humbled by.. I dunno.. you’re goodness? =). But seriously, I really think you’re the type of person I should strive to be like. Thankyou so much for everything - for caring and worrying for me.. and aiya. You made me feel really special today. Thankyou.
After that, I went to find Daisy and Melinda at the Career Advisor’s office.. and waah it was so crowded with year 10s! ><;;. I talked to Shelia for a bit.. and then decided I needed to see my group again, so I ran downstairs and showed them my mobile.. and OMG THEY’RE GONNA COME SEE ME OFF!! THEY’RE COMING TO THE AIRPORT TO SEE ME OFF!! DANA, AOLLY, VEIN, JANET AND BEL ARE COMING TO THE AIRPORT TO FAREWELL ME. And omggg >___<;;. You guys are too good to me.. But wait til I surprise you guys ;D.
Daisy finished with the careers advisor and came down with Melinda to see me.. and we sat and talked for a bit.. until there was the dreaded announcement.. “could all year 11s please assemble in the quad.” OMFG. That was my cue to BOLT. So I did. But like Dana had warned me the night before, there are mny people who can run faster than me. In this case, it was Dana who grabbed me and dragged me, bag and mobile gift and all, back to the quad. WAIIII >___<;;;!! And suddenly there’s this 360 degree human barricade of people hugging me even BEFORE the hokey pokey begns. And when they finally dispersed, what do you know ? The year 11s had assembled.
What happened next doesn’t need to be described to any NSG.. it was the usually, get pushed and glomped and hugged and cried on and jumped on.. and in the end it’s just like a human mosh pit and Shelia joined in even though she’s year 10 lol =b. But then again, it’s a good way of making sure I get to say goodbye to everyone. I gave Cissy like five hugs, and Ester got many hugs too.. and Sarah got a super long hug and she started crying and omgg >___<;; Sarah, I love you heaps, and you’re always there for me, always helping me put my situation into perspective.. I really wish we could’ve spent more time together.. I will definitely remember what you’ve told me, all the advice, and become a happier person =).
Then, when the crowd thinned a little.. uwaahhhh ~ Sensei is here!! I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I was leaving earlier, Sensei. and I know you’ve been worrying too.. so I have Sensei a big hug.. and then Cissy dragged me out of the middle because it was time to go to class.. and I saw Ms K.. and gave her a big hug too. Then I turn around and it’s my group waiting for me.. so we had a massive group hug.. and it was really one of the warmest yet.
So then it was time to go to Japanese class and I had a whole escort to take me there.. ♡. We spent about 40min talking about my trip and China and just everything, before I had to go sign out.
And what a speedy sign out it was! It took about half an hour.. and in the movement between 4th and 5th period, I bumped into Shelia again! Wah.. we must have some sort of fatal attraction♡! So I gave her a hug, and ooh, something a little special - I got to hug Joey too =D! Actually, I’ve admired Joey a long time for various reasons, but never talked to her at school, except for a few ‘hi’s.. so yes. That was pretty special!! ^^
And then I went to bum with Daisy and Melineda in a Bblock room before heading to bus stop. Daisy left early.. but that’s okay, I’m seeing her for a long long while tomorrow. ButI gave Melinda a long last hug and big thankyou and omg, yes, I will miss bitching about *nameofperson* with you! But keep any polans for ruining that person’s life in hand and I will help you if you ever need it :D!
So I waited for two buses and missed them both because Sarah seemed to be taking her time.. and then I rang her and WTF she was like 2m away, separated by the busstop timber wall. WTFLOL. So we got on the bus, and had a talk with Frances about China, and she told me stories of her ideas of leaving the country and so forth.. it gave me a brighter view on moving to China.
We got off, and me and Sarah had our last walk from Wynyard to Townhall.. Waahh.. TT__________TT;;. We just joked about things and going to China and ways to behave and everything.. And you know, that, as our last talk in person was better than any of the times I’ve ranted to youor let out my feelings on you, because that’s just how I wish my everyday to be.. just talking and joking while doing ordinary day-to-day things..
… and then off to meet the two lovely girls, Apple and Janice♡♡♡!! They came with me to Kinokuniya to buy textbooks and magazine and Easyway and then I REALLY had to go.
On the bus home… I suppose that’s when it really started to hit me that I was going. while I was doing Sudoku.. like.. I will never see these people again. I will never see NSG again. Or at least.. I won’t be able to spend any substantial amount of time with these people or places anymore. And like.. after all this time of not being at school.. I still find I’m going to miss everyone so much.. man. It just goes to prove.. It’s true. You can never appreciate what you’ve got til it’s gone.