I am a flake.
Wow. Er, today was possibly the worst day of my life. Ever. Aside from just sucking in general, we have math finals tomorrow (I have NO idea what's going on in math), I am without a soccer team and I preeeeetty much managed to cry all afternoon.
According to Scott, I am a manipulative, evasive, half-assing flake that's afraid to commit and then looks back on her faults, gets angry/annoyed and tries to change them. He is dead on. and I LOVE him for saying it. He has told me more about my life and how I need to shape the fuck up in 30 minutes than ANYONE has ever told me in my life. Dead on. About every aspect of my life. Including boys. Yeah. That's odd. But that's just an excerpt. Basically I feel like a dumbfuck. On the other hand, I think that after that meeting my outlook on life changed. Now I just need to prove it.
Unfortunately, both Scott and Deri have asked me to grow the hell up in the most insanely limited amount of time. I can't make up my mind about shit. The fact that I SHOULDN'T be worrying about this kind of ish and instead SHOULD be studying for finals REALLY HELPS, ACTUALLY. NOT Fook.
Every last bit of my life is toooo demanding. Its like all of a sudden everything came crashing down on me (well, not all of a sudden... it's been crashing in slow mo i guess) and now I have to sort it all out like RIGHT now okay ready BREAK!! No offense to anyone... but lately everyone's been hurling themselves around with their depressing lives n shit and it REALLY FUCKING GETS TO ME.
I don't know how much longer my family, so precariously supported by stilts made of perscription pills and antidepressants, can hold the weight.
And I got a timeback and in-school suspension for a week. Just for trying to avoid my life. Fucking flake.
According to Scott, I am a manipulative, evasive, half-assing flake that's afraid to commit and then looks back on her faults, gets angry/annoyed and tries to change them. He is dead on. and I LOVE him for saying it. He has told me more about my life and how I need to shape the fuck up in 30 minutes than ANYONE has ever told me in my life. Dead on. About every aspect of my life. Including boys. Yeah. That's odd. But that's just an excerpt. Basically I feel like a dumbfuck. On the other hand, I think that after that meeting my outlook on life changed. Now I just need to prove it.
Unfortunately, both Scott and Deri have asked me to grow the hell up in the most insanely limited amount of time. I can't make up my mind about shit. The fact that I SHOULDN'T be worrying about this kind of ish and instead SHOULD be studying for finals REALLY HELPS, ACTUALLY. NOT Fook.
Every last bit of my life is toooo demanding. Its like all of a sudden everything came crashing down on me (well, not all of a sudden... it's been crashing in slow mo i guess) and now I have to sort it all out like RIGHT now okay ready BREAK!! No offense to anyone... but lately everyone's been hurling themselves around with their depressing lives n shit and it REALLY FUCKING GETS TO ME.
I don't know how much longer my family, so precariously supported by stilts made of perscription pills and antidepressants, can hold the weight.
And I got a timeback and in-school suspension for a week. Just for trying to avoid my life. Fucking flake.