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I don't know how to say what I mean anymore.
SNOW JANUARY GRAY CONCRETE HARD COLD SLICK SMASH DONE DEAD EMPTY
Word salad-ish.
Even that can't help me
(Help me
Help me
Help me)
I think it's because I'm afraid to say it that I'm vague. Because I'll feel stupid, look pathetic, be weird.
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It's so sad when, even in your own head, you censor yourself.
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(I just wanted to be better friends and I feel like I ruin it EVERYTIME)
THERE. I said it.
Now how do I fix wanting something that he probably doesn't care very much about?
SNOW JANUARY GRAY CONCRETE HARD COLD SLICK SMASH DONE DEAD EMPTY
Word salad-ish.
Even that can't help me
(Help me
Help me
Help me)
I think it's because I'm afraid to say it that I'm vague. Because I'll feel stupid, look pathetic, be weird.
***
It's so sad when, even in your own head, you censor yourself.
***
(I just wanted to be better friends and I feel like I ruin it EVERYTIME)
THERE. I said it.
Now how do I fix wanting something that he probably doesn't care very much about?