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what is wrong with me? why is it so hard for me to trust? i can open up with anything else except for that. i dunno, maybe i lack self confidence, i just don't know. i hate not trusting even when its trusting someone i really care about, i just don't know y its so hard for me...i guess i am ultimately afraid of rejection...anyone who knows me, knows that i hate not knowing things, and me not knowing whether this is all it is hyped up to be, kills me...maybe if i knew then i wouldn't stay up crying or being upset because its all that is ever in my head