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after yesterdays long walk i was really tired today at the gym... and i had just come from the city where i had taken a practice lsat
Jen's friend died yesterday. he was just 18. he was disabled and was very susceptible to illness .. he simply got a cold which turned into pneumonia. death is so merciless. it's not as if you are guaranteed anything in life. it is not guaranteed to 'get better'... it all just happens in succession ..so quickly. and if by chance you get knocked into the street and hit by a car before you've had sex or gotten married or traveled out of the country or met anyone that youve ever been close to or had any meaningful experiences then SO it goes... death does not hold out until you've had a fulfilling life.. it just happens.
last night jen read old entries from David's xanga to me on the phone in which he was talking about this.
i appreciate thinking about this even though it scares me because it keeps me wanting to "suck that marrow out of LIFE" ...if i can ever get out of queens that is.
or more eloquently put:
I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life...to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.
~Henry David Thoreau
Jen's friend died yesterday. he was just 18. he was disabled and was very susceptible to illness .. he simply got a cold which turned into pneumonia. death is so merciless. it's not as if you are guaranteed anything in life. it is not guaranteed to 'get better'... it all just happens in succession ..so quickly. and if by chance you get knocked into the street and hit by a car before you've had sex or gotten married or traveled out of the country or met anyone that youve ever been close to or had any meaningful experiences then SO it goes... death does not hold out until you've had a fulfilling life.. it just happens.
last night jen read old entries from David's xanga to me on the phone in which he was talking about this.
i appreciate thinking about this even though it scares me because it keeps me wanting to "suck that marrow out of LIFE" ...if i can ever get out of queens that is.
or more eloquently put:
I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life...to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.
~Henry David Thoreau