Everything Keeps Coming Back To You
I'm trying to think about somebody/something else. I really am. But i usually fail... Everything, every goddamn little thing is now compared in my life with him. Let alone chemistry and himself. My job, my collegues, my Academy, my music, my airport, my pc and my future mac, my usa, my books, my nails, my Armani's and Versace's, my patients, my surgeries, my family and friends... Everything around me is filled with him. Like God is laughing at me in Heaven, keeping myself a foolish child of His.
I'm just kinda tired... tired of waiting. Tired of waiting his firsts : first step, first hug, first kiss, first asking-out, first date... Is this going to be a little deeper than just a stupid flirt???
I can't take that first step... I really can't. I don't want to ruin everything we have now. Yeah, we have almost nothing, but i'm hanging on that "almost nothing"... My friends keep laughing at my stories, telling me i should buy him a sexual present like pink handcuffs, or call him at 3 in the morning at to ask him for a walk right away. Yeah, that might be very funny, i often make fun of myself, but it'll do. When all of my friends keep laughing at us, i start crying....
Yeah, i look like a grown up woman with a huge ego... But there've been 8 years since i have been in love with a man. Well, naturally, i'm still in love with THAT man. And i always will be. Lucky am i, my old big love transforms now in something new... I don't wanna be in love with a deadman anymore.
The thing is... there's nothing more to make fun of... I'm lost here... I'm losing myself.. And nobody will ever understand. Everyone believes that to be in love is such a big blessing. But it can big such a huge grief... When there's nothing, but my own courage...
I'm just kinda tired... tired of waiting. Tired of waiting his firsts : first step, first hug, first kiss, first asking-out, first date... Is this going to be a little deeper than just a stupid flirt???
I can't take that first step... I really can't. I don't want to ruin everything we have now. Yeah, we have almost nothing, but i'm hanging on that "almost nothing"... My friends keep laughing at my stories, telling me i should buy him a sexual present like pink handcuffs, or call him at 3 in the morning at to ask him for a walk right away. Yeah, that might be very funny, i often make fun of myself, but it'll do. When all of my friends keep laughing at us, i start crying....
Yeah, i look like a grown up woman with a huge ego... But there've been 8 years since i have been in love with a man. Well, naturally, i'm still in love with THAT man. And i always will be. Lucky am i, my old big love transforms now in something new... I don't wanna be in love with a deadman anymore.
The thing is... there's nothing more to make fun of... I'm lost here... I'm losing myself.. And nobody will ever understand. Everyone believes that to be in love is such a big blessing. But it can big such a huge grief... When there's nothing, but my own courage...