it's really complicated. hmmm... actually maybe not really complicated, but i get misunderstood, i always get misunderstood about it. so i prefer not to tell about him and our relationships. some times i tried to share all my thoughts about our situation with some of my friends i thought i could trust, but i failed. they too called me crazy and didn't believe that my life will work out that way. and after my last try i decided not to share my weird opinions, points of view, decisions, thoughts with anybody anymore. heh.... ..filipino in blood, californian in passport - click
i got you right here, hun. that is only your business, not of my bloody one. if you prefer to keep some things private, to keep it to yourself, to you both- i absolutely respect it. i just hope you'll be happy on any way you choose. he has such a kind looking in his eyes! and who is that little baby angel on his lap? his daughter? your daughter?
thank you for understanding. you're sweet and i trust you. the main thing is just he's not here, but there, in lathrop, california. and it's probably the saddest thing for me. especially when i want to hug him tight and wake up holding him close... or when he's ill it's terrible for me to be out of reach to help him. but nothing will never ever change my mind about him and i will survive this 3 years here patiently waiting for the moment when we could share each day together. technical side makes me upset though. bride's visa, imigration and many awful troubles i should go through. so yeah, i meant all that stuff... not for my luck all my friends are damn partiots. it's one more "minus" for my situation. thanks, he's awesome :) and it's only one picture when he's smiling so pure and cheerful. the girl is his nephew. she's a real little angel :) family is a very-very important thing for filipino. so if you hear that you're the only one loved aside from family it means alot. which makes me happy actually...
i hear, ya, sweetheart. I've lived like this for 5 whole years. He was there, in NYC, and i was here, in motherfucking Russia. I was flying there and back like a crazygirl... But we definetely WERE happy. We were the family - although nobody will believe me now... Hah, i used to care about my frends' oppinion ('leave him, honey, he's an old jerk! he just loves russian whores, and you ain't one for sure!') for our early years, then i've gotten much smarter and wiser. i din't EVER give the damn on my 'dear' friends' oppinion! It was a difficult time. But happy as well. Live your life, NEVER let ANYONE live it for you. Hah, if you're looking for Russian patriots here- wrong livejournal, really:)) Almost everyting about Russia makes me sick to my stomach. I'm a patriot. American patriot. hey, guys, who long you've together now? where and how you guys met?
can i hug you? i would really do it right now. my mom told me one time: "no matter how things will go on, no matter what will happen in the end, no matter if happiness doesn't last forever i will be happy knowing if you're happy, even just for a while, even for a little while". now i got you better. definitely
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sure u can:)) and i would hug you back:)) btw, do you really live in St. Petersburg? hah, your mom is absolutely right:)) she must be a real smart woman! *shit* can i hug once again? just same here!!! another mentality, born different and don't understand russian stuff!!! i won't bother you with my long stories- just you know everything! well, i have friends... i have real great awesome friends.. they don't always agree with me in some facts (there are many of them, honestly), but they support me in almost any way i'd choose... i guess we can become friends. really. nah, i'm not much into europe though. yeah, i love some countries there, but... it's a good place for visit, but not to live. such a nice story... btw, France SUCKS!!!! hate all french stuff:language, Paris, country itself, movies, literature etc..... So, i'm not shocked your french macho is just a jerk. have u guys met in real life ever? ps. i'm so happy to meet you too:)) btw, i'm Anastacia. Nastya, Stasey- u can call me anyway you like:))
yeah, i really live in st.petersburg. sorry, i didn't reply your that comment, i was gonna and i'm still gonna reply - i just don't have enough time to do it.
my mom is my best friend =) she loves steve and he loves her back :)
i like europe because it's just a pretty clean place, but i too wouldn't stay to live there. not mine. at all.
that frenchie was an asshole, now i don't understand how i could even talk to him.. eeak!
unfortunately no :( it's so damn hard to get a visa. and i pay for my education. it's quite expensive that's why now i don't have enough money for a flight. i hoped i could come there this summer, but i can't. lately he finally found a job so he's working really hard to earn some money for us. well.... i'm exploring many things to find a possibility to go to usa. heh....
in the net everybody knows me as fiona. but name is jenya. steve calls me hennya or henhah :D
you know what? i'm not sure yet... but maybe.. just maybe... in may... In "Pulkovo" airport, Term. 1, will land flight # UN 101 from Domodedovo to St.Petersburg operated by Transaero airlines... with me on the board:))) u know what? i know a ouple, they've met over the internet... they were talking for hours on the phone, chatting in messengers... well.. he's american, she's russian... they are now happily married for more than 4 (!!!) years now! they live in Florida. hey, you can get a tourist visa! much easier! yeah, you can't stay long, but at least you can COME! just to.. . tocuh him!!! Henhah??? Maybe, Jane?
aww... cool! you're gonna come here. i just saw that one of your friend lives here :D some my good friends from moscow will come here in may!! :)
yeah, i believe in that. really. i hate to read any shit about usa and fucking russian chicks which use ameracan guys just to come abroad and live there. it's so mean.
i know. and it's what i'm gonna do next year when i have much money. now i really can't afford even a ticket to san francisco.
nah, not jane, i don't like it. so fiona or jenya is pretty good :)
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and who is HE?
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..filipino in blood, californian in passport - click
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he has such a kind looking in his eyes! and who is that little baby angel on his lap? his daughter? your daughter?
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thanks, he's awesome :) and it's only one picture when he's smiling so pure and cheerful. the girl is his nephew. she's a real little angel :) family is a very-very important thing for filipino. so if you hear that you're the only one loved aside from family it means alot. which makes me happy actually...
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It was a difficult time. But happy as well. Live your life, NEVER let ANYONE live it for you.
Hah, if you're looking for Russian patriots here- wrong livejournal, really:)) Almost everyting about Russia makes me sick to my stomach. I'm a patriot. American patriot.
hey, guys, who long you've together now? where and how you guys met?
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btw, do you really live in St. Petersburg?
hah, your mom is absolutely right:)) she must be a real smart woman!
*shit* can i hug once again? just same here!!! another mentality, born different and don't understand russian stuff!!! i won't bother you with my long stories- just you know everything!
well, i have friends... i have real great awesome friends.. they don't always agree with me in some facts (there are many of them, honestly), but they support me in almost any way i'd choose...
i guess we can become friends. really.
nah, i'm not much into europe though. yeah, i love some countries there, but... it's a good place for visit, but not to live.
such a nice story... btw, France SUCKS!!!! hate all french stuff:language, Paris, country itself, movies, literature etc..... So, i'm not shocked your french macho is just a jerk.
have u guys met in real life ever?
ps. i'm so happy to meet you too:)) btw, i'm Anastacia. Nastya, Stasey- u can call me anyway you like:))
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my mom is my best friend =) she loves steve and he loves her back :)
i like europe because it's just a pretty clean place, but i too wouldn't stay to live there. not mine. at all.
that frenchie was an asshole, now i don't understand how i could even talk to him.. eeak!
unfortunately no :( it's so damn hard to get a visa. and i pay for my education. it's quite expensive that's why now i don't have enough money for a flight. i hoped i could come there this summer, but i can't. lately he finally found a job so he's working really hard to earn some money for us. well.... i'm exploring many things to find a possibility to go to usa. heh....
in the net everybody knows me as fiona. but name is jenya. steve calls me hennya or henhah :D
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u know what? i know a ouple, they've met over the internet... they were talking for hours on the phone, chatting in messengers... well.. he's american, she's russian... they are now happily married for more than 4 (!!!) years now! they live in Florida.
hey, you can get a tourist visa! much easier! yeah, you can't stay long, but at least you can COME! just to.. . tocuh him!!!
Henhah??? Maybe, Jane?
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yeah, i believe in that. really. i hate to read any shit about usa and fucking russian chicks which use ameracan guys just to come abroad and live there. it's so mean.
i know. and it's what i'm gonna do next year when i have much money. now i really can't afford even a ticket to san francisco.
nah, not jane, i don't like it. so fiona or jenya is pretty good :)
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your friend are coming too? well, that's kewl:)) and we can meet each other:))
i told ya- there are lotta russian whores. all they care about is money.
nah, you'll do it fo sho. don't even bother to think different. and for now- patience, patience, patience. welcome to waiting room:))
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hehe, never seen this spelling, but okay :)
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