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i have no pulse. im reckless and a danger to any man i might love. push and pull is one of my favorite games to play. i did it before. i'm doing it again. and they put up with me. i dont know why.
push and pull. definitely keeps things interesting...you, however, are getting boring. you're a pretty face. maybe i'm getting boring. i can't compete with the love of your life. i'm sorry you don't want to kiss me. you're kisses are yummy. i like them. i like when you hold me. i like my arms across your chest. but not if its going to be empty. not if you're going to pretend we're nothing more than acquaintences to everyone else. it just doesnt feel like there's emotion any more. and maybe its better this way. better because we're not going to be together in a little while anyway. better because we both havent moved on or recovered from her and him. you're warm to the touch but icy cold and distant. i know exactally where you are. i'm envious. envious because you know what you want. why cant i have that
i wish i knew what i want. i've gone through life never planning. never making a long term decision. its in my nature. to be fickle. to be constantly changing. i don't know what i want. i dont know what WILL make me happy. I live in the eternal present. what's good now. live in the moment. didnt that used to be a good thing?
push and pull. definitely keeps things interesting...you, however, are getting boring. you're a pretty face. maybe i'm getting boring. i can't compete with the love of your life. i'm sorry you don't want to kiss me. you're kisses are yummy. i like them. i like when you hold me. i like my arms across your chest. but not if its going to be empty. not if you're going to pretend we're nothing more than acquaintences to everyone else. it just doesnt feel like there's emotion any more. and maybe its better this way. better because we're not going to be together in a little while anyway. better because we both havent moved on or recovered from her and him. you're warm to the touch but icy cold and distant. i know exactally where you are. i'm envious. envious because you know what you want. why cant i have that
i wish i knew what i want. i've gone through life never planning. never making a long term decision. its in my nature. to be fickle. to be constantly changing. i don't know what i want. i dont know what WILL make me happy. I live in the eternal present. what's good now. live in the moment. didnt that used to be a good thing?