forever doomed
i am forever doomed to walk this planet alone. i am always in some other world thinking about stuff that will never happen. always wanting to be something else. i am always in a fanatasy world. maybe its not such a bad thing. it makes me who i am. always haveing that hope that the world will be what i want it to be. i know i am negative towards everything..me mostly. i have realized that i am not negative towards all this lovey dovey stuff. if you look at me watching moulin rouge or some pretty awesome movie involving love...like edward scissorhands..my face is like all into it. you can tell that i actually LOVE these stories to death. but this day dreaming keeps me from reality. reality for me is a world of impossibliites. thats how i view it anyway. even though i am alone, i still like to dream about what it would be like to have a fantasy realtionship. the impossiblities are not life threatening.i am happy i am in good health and am not in some thrid world country. but they are big enough to me that i always think i have to change me to fix them. im sure people must think i am selfish. but when you have a point of view on something and you cant change it and you know you should, of course your going to come across as selfish because people think you are just being a bitch. sigh. atleast i have a few friends that care enough to listen to me and my nonesense all day long.