You cant fake it hard enough to please...
Im so sad:(
I have been so sad all day, and steven hasnt replied to my texts for hours. I must take the hint though, he wants no contact iguess. That hurts lots, Ive been on the edge of tears all day. And i cried when i was walking home, Spencer sent me a really lovely text and i just sat down in the pavillion park and cried my eyes out. I felt so stupid. And some man sellintg the big issue tried to grope me. Great. Ive had a great day.
I have said from the begining, this relationship is about me and him. I would get rid of any outside problem, just like that. If we have a problem between ourselves then we can sort it out between ourselves. But if it involves someone else, if someone else is jeopardising the relationship, its probably a losing battle. Right? Well it is.
Steven says how come your so calm? Why arent you screaming and shouting? I havent got it in me anymore. Ive tried so hard, and we've got so far but once again Jo comes up and smashes it all up. Hes not on my side. I just think about when Lex and Russell were complaining about some girl, i think her name was hayley. And they were saying how this hayley was being mean to lex and sucking up to russell or soemthing. I cant explain properly, im all confused. But basically, he just said something that was so sweet, about how him and lex are together and they are sticking together and noone comes between them. I want that.
When i got back from Reading i decided that i was going to get leo out of my life. Deadwood. He was rude to me, and he couldnt find it in him to be civilto steve. So i wanted him gone. If he apologised to me and made an effort with steve then yes we start again. Not before. He has to say sorry.
I wouldnt ever let anyone act to steve how jo has been to me. I would be FURIOUS. Noone treats my boyfriend like that. Noone treats anyone i care about like that. But he just isnt the same. Not at all. He thinks its my problem. He thinks i should get over jo. I cant because she was there from the start and she just wont go away. As soon as we got together it was "i want you to pretend were just friends, so jo doesnt find out, i dont want to hurt her"
its fucked up.
He says noone should tell him who he can and cant be friends with. Its true. I just wish he would choose me, us, over someone that has no respect for him, and someone he will barelt talk to.:(
Ohh spencer carter is so nice, I texted him by accident when i was texting michelle. And he said i sounded sad and asked what was wrong. Obviously i didnt tell him, i told him why, ERR your steves bestie and its not my place to tell your our troubles. your his friend first not mine. hEsays okay but if i need to talk... awwh! i think he would be agood person to talk to about this,i sense he would understand. Although i think hes odd, like things steve has said about him lying? but i dont think he can tell that many lies when giving me advice??
i want my mum.
I have been so sad all day, and steven hasnt replied to my texts for hours. I must take the hint though, he wants no contact iguess. That hurts lots, Ive been on the edge of tears all day. And i cried when i was walking home, Spencer sent me a really lovely text and i just sat down in the pavillion park and cried my eyes out. I felt so stupid. And some man sellintg the big issue tried to grope me. Great. Ive had a great day.
I have said from the begining, this relationship is about me and him. I would get rid of any outside problem, just like that. If we have a problem between ourselves then we can sort it out between ourselves. But if it involves someone else, if someone else is jeopardising the relationship, its probably a losing battle. Right? Well it is.
Steven says how come your so calm? Why arent you screaming and shouting? I havent got it in me anymore. Ive tried so hard, and we've got so far but once again Jo comes up and smashes it all up. Hes not on my side. I just think about when Lex and Russell were complaining about some girl, i think her name was hayley. And they were saying how this hayley was being mean to lex and sucking up to russell or soemthing. I cant explain properly, im all confused. But basically, he just said something that was so sweet, about how him and lex are together and they are sticking together and noone comes between them. I want that.
When i got back from Reading i decided that i was going to get leo out of my life. Deadwood. He was rude to me, and he couldnt find it in him to be civilto steve. So i wanted him gone. If he apologised to me and made an effort with steve then yes we start again. Not before. He has to say sorry.
I wouldnt ever let anyone act to steve how jo has been to me. I would be FURIOUS. Noone treats my boyfriend like that. Noone treats anyone i care about like that. But he just isnt the same. Not at all. He thinks its my problem. He thinks i should get over jo. I cant because she was there from the start and she just wont go away. As soon as we got together it was "i want you to pretend were just friends, so jo doesnt find out, i dont want to hurt her"
its fucked up.
He says noone should tell him who he can and cant be friends with. Its true. I just wish he would choose me, us, over someone that has no respect for him, and someone he will barelt talk to.:(
Ohh spencer carter is so nice, I texted him by accident when i was texting michelle. And he said i sounded sad and asked what was wrong. Obviously i didnt tell him, i told him why, ERR your steves bestie and its not my place to tell your our troubles. your his friend first not mine. hEsays okay but if i need to talk... awwh! i think he would be agood person to talk to about this,i sense he would understand. Although i think hes odd, like things steve has said about him lying? but i dont think he can tell that many lies when giving me advice??
i want my mum.