boo hoo im so sad
Yes i properly am.
I have just had a row with steven. He was laughing at me.
I feel generally poo, i spose i feel all fragile and really on edge and steven said thathe would be there for me. Ohh i know it was probably a silly argument and yes i got upset but he made it worse.
Basically its this. Morris is bringing round the video from steves party tomorrow or the day after or whatever. And i asked him to wait for me to get there on friday nuight/sat day to watch it so we could watch it togther. he says no. i say please. He says no. i say youre mean. he says no.
I just wanted to watch it together cos it would be nice and special and stuff. We never do SPECIAL stuff together:( and so he says okay we watch it when i get there -SO I STOP WHINGING???? and he turns to spencer who is in the room and says i hate girls and they laugh at me. THEY LAUGHED AT ME! i was sad already and i spose that pushes me over the edge, i cried and i cried and i felt all let down. Why is he laughuing at me? hE KNows i am sad at the moment so he makes it worse by LAUGHING AT ME?? and he tells me im stupid and im making a fuss over nothing? But if its nothonbg, if its not important why cant he just wait for me??
Ohh its all so nasty. He said all this "ill be there for you ring if you need me if your sad" but when he makes me sad, he doesnt try to calm me down, he doesnt compromise he doesnt anything EXCEPT LAUGH AT ME.
im gonna get some food now. ill maybe wreite about reading later i dont know. Ohh yeas and im mad cos he told me he was making aimEE some cdrs or something. But when i ask him to make me any he always complains and hints that i should buy him the cds to put them on. But when she asks its all OHH YES OKAY I WILL DO THAT FOR YOU. i bet hes done it already:( no offence to you here AimEE by the way.
ohh godddd i hate it all.
And yea he thinks that im going to kill myself. I dont want to kill myself. i wouldnt have the guts. i just get so sad, i just want to go away sometimes.
xxxx
I have just had a row with steven. He was laughing at me.
I feel generally poo, i spose i feel all fragile and really on edge and steven said thathe would be there for me. Ohh i know it was probably a silly argument and yes i got upset but he made it worse.
Basically its this. Morris is bringing round the video from steves party tomorrow or the day after or whatever. And i asked him to wait for me to get there on friday nuight/sat day to watch it so we could watch it togther. he says no. i say please. He says no. i say youre mean. he says no.
I just wanted to watch it together cos it would be nice and special and stuff. We never do SPECIAL stuff together:( and so he says okay we watch it when i get there -SO I STOP WHINGING???? and he turns to spencer who is in the room and says i hate girls and they laugh at me. THEY LAUGHED AT ME! i was sad already and i spose that pushes me over the edge, i cried and i cried and i felt all let down. Why is he laughuing at me? hE KNows i am sad at the moment so he makes it worse by LAUGHING AT ME?? and he tells me im stupid and im making a fuss over nothing? But if its nothonbg, if its not important why cant he just wait for me??
Ohh its all so nasty. He said all this "ill be there for you ring if you need me if your sad" but when he makes me sad, he doesnt try to calm me down, he doesnt compromise he doesnt anything EXCEPT LAUGH AT ME.
im gonna get some food now. ill maybe wreite about reading later i dont know. Ohh yeas and im mad cos he told me he was making aimEE some cdrs or something. But when i ask him to make me any he always complains and hints that i should buy him the cds to put them on. But when she asks its all OHH YES OKAY I WILL DO THAT FOR YOU. i bet hes done it already:( no offence to you here AimEE by the way.
ohh godddd i hate it all.
And yea he thinks that im going to kill myself. I dont want to kill myself. i wouldnt have the guts. i just get so sad, i just want to go away sometimes.
xxxx