=\ i'm sick of lying in bed, feeling sick.. i miss going out on my porch every evening and stargazing, smoking a cig, maybe talking on the phone, i miss it... i miss my boyfriend and my friends. i hate being this sick.. i look at how nuts my mom can get with the mood swings that come with having graves disease and it scares me. i'm already pretty much an all around bitch, you know? i refuse to turn into a bitch who can't keep any of her damn kids, and pops pills all the fucking time and is either at work or asleep and then realizes one day they're forty and any chance of really making something with my life... is gone.
heh, who's to know, really? my mom didn't want it to happen, and i look at her and i nearly wet myself. this isn't some.. problem that i, myself can just *snap* fix. i'm not saying i for sure have it, but the shit scares me, it was almost to late for my mom, what if it IS too late by the time i get diagnosed if i do? =\
GET OFF THEE COMPUTER.
GO TO BED, BEFORE YOU DIE!!
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okay, yes, it was bed, right? =\
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I miss being happy. but that's not because of any..sickness thing.
and hey, that won't happen to you if you don't let it!!
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NOWWW!!
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its time for a -dunhdunhdunh- cancer stick.
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