I feel really ugly all the time now.

[cunninlynguist]

I guess it's all right though. I mean, I don't really have much purpose up here anyway, let alone anyone to look nice for. Maybe I'd feel better if I made any effort to maintain social relations and didn't take occasional pictures from really awful angles:


In other news, I'm a reading, sleeping pill machine. I really wish that life was simple enough to the point that I could easily chose my location and the company I keep from day to day. Fuck money, I hate it and I hate that I need it. I also hate that for some reason in society, people will send you something stupid like a couple dozen red roses when I'd prefer something more thoughtful, and probably cheaper.. like a carton of cigarettes. I was thinking about that today. My birthday's coming up sort of. I'm like "What's a practical gift that I will use, that will prevent me from spending more money?... A carton of cigarettes". Is that weird?

Also, it was brought to my attention the other night that men do not find women with brains to be attractive. I mean, it was laid out just like that. So I guess I'm shit out of luck, because I don't respond to everything with "that's cool". Maybe not having a sex life will induce creative energy. HAH