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i hate to be all emo...but that moment has finally come...i can no longer escape the reality that i am leavin to college n so is everyone else...
today in the mornin i said good bye to my pinky n i left him for uf to take away...ive been crying incesantly for the past day and a half n it has suddenly hit me that i am leaving too...
last nite i had a talk with my dad, the only person i know that may have a stronger ability than me to totally desensetize (sp?) and become numb, and this conversation ended with both of us in tears
my mother, the most emotional person on the planet can do nothing more but get mad at me every five seconds n say i love u whenever she's not yelling at me...my brother n sister have finally realized that they'll hafta find a way around not getting cafe con leche n help with homework n hugs n "i will kill anyone who lays a finger on u" 's from me...
im overwhelmed...
as "self reliant" as i am, for the most part, and with as much as ive been through, ive never been so scared in my life, not even in a shaking, crowded elevator...what am i gonna do without my mom to argue with everyday n to turn to when i just dont know wut to do with myself or what to wear lol...n without my dad to tell me how stupid what im doing is n to talk to about future entrepeneurial adventures...n my abuelos that flip out if i havent called them by 1130 am...n my lil kids n their annoyingness n cuteness n genuine love...n all my friends that brightened everyday of my life...
last nite u said i had never seemed more human to u before, but i felt so vulnerable...i wanted to cry, i wanted so smile n laugh, i wanted to hug u, i wanted to be sad cuz ur leaving me, i wanted to break down in fear...thanks for being my crutches last nite...i woulda fallen if i hadnt been in ur arms...n im really happy that im not the only one that thinks we can defy the odds ...
its sad how we take things for granted n then want to hang on to them so hard when we come to realize theyre not there forever...n it kills me to think how fast this summer went by n how lil of what i wanted to do i actually did, but it makes me happy to think of all the crazy fun i had with ppl that i love...
saturday morning my mom n me are loading up n hitting the road to my new home...
cheers to new beginnings
good luck to everyone, know that i love u guys!
today in the mornin i said good bye to my pinky n i left him for uf to take away...ive been crying incesantly for the past day and a half n it has suddenly hit me that i am leaving too...
last nite i had a talk with my dad, the only person i know that may have a stronger ability than me to totally desensetize (sp?) and become numb, and this conversation ended with both of us in tears
my mother, the most emotional person on the planet can do nothing more but get mad at me every five seconds n say i love u whenever she's not yelling at me...my brother n sister have finally realized that they'll hafta find a way around not getting cafe con leche n help with homework n hugs n "i will kill anyone who lays a finger on u" 's from me...
im overwhelmed...
as "self reliant" as i am, for the most part, and with as much as ive been through, ive never been so scared in my life, not even in a shaking, crowded elevator...what am i gonna do without my mom to argue with everyday n to turn to when i just dont know wut to do with myself or what to wear lol...n without my dad to tell me how stupid what im doing is n to talk to about future entrepeneurial adventures...n my abuelos that flip out if i havent called them by 1130 am...n my lil kids n their annoyingness n cuteness n genuine love...n all my friends that brightened everyday of my life...
last nite u said i had never seemed more human to u before, but i felt so vulnerable...i wanted to cry, i wanted so smile n laugh, i wanted to hug u, i wanted to be sad cuz ur leaving me, i wanted to break down in fear...thanks for being my crutches last nite...i woulda fallen if i hadnt been in ur arms...n im really happy that im not the only one that thinks we can defy the odds ...
its sad how we take things for granted n then want to hang on to them so hard when we come to realize theyre not there forever...n it kills me to think how fast this summer went by n how lil of what i wanted to do i actually did, but it makes me happy to think of all the crazy fun i had with ppl that i love...
saturday morning my mom n me are loading up n hitting the road to my new home...
cheers to new beginnings
good luck to everyone, know that i love u guys!