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man today andy went campimg and he wont be back til sunday sometime and today is friday. so i have to go like 2-3 days without talking or seeing hima nd its going to be hard. becuse i am already to the point where i wanna call him. because everytime night at this time i cal him or he calls me and it wont happen for like 2 nights. it kinda sux. well tomorrow is goin to be hella boring. i have nothing to do and all of my friends are camping. it sux hard ones. i think i am to the point where i am not sure if i want to keep pursueing after andy or just give up. i mean i love the guy and we will alwys be friends and shit but i think what i an going to do is just be his sex buddie and wiat til i know what he wants. i mean latley i have been tryin to get him bak and i think i am just going to lay low and see what he does when he realizes that i am done tryin. i mean i have tried more then once to get him back and everytime i succeed but i feel as if maybe he should be the one to try this time becuase i have everytime. i think that i deserve the best and i want him to see that. i kno that he still likes me and maybe loves me becuase of the way he acts sometimes. but other times im not sure. but i kno that he does stil like me. i kno at least that much.
well i am in the stage where i think i want andy back but am not sure. i mean i have my ex adam asking me out, my good good friend jason, and my friend donnie. and i kno that if i wanted to i could have ne one of them. but the guy that i want... i am not sure if i can have. i need advice on what to do. should i just wait to see how he acts and see if he trys to get me back or keep tryin or give up? but heres the thng i messed up....
the night that me and andy broke up we had sex and agreed to be sex buddies. and we made an agreement tht if something happend with another person then the other one would know right away. well the night that we broke up i went to a party got smashed becuase i was heart broken and this guy named ben kept following me and pushing me into sex, but i wouldnt so i kissed kyle since ben was right there hoping to get ben away, and kyle grabbed my head and started making out with me. and i went with it. then i never told andy til like 3 weeks later. and at the time that i finally told him we were basically back together. well the night i told him he said that we were done except friends but if i relly love him like i said then i can try and get him back but only time would tell him if he wanted me back. he said tht over time chances are that he would want me back. but i kno that he just wants to see me try and hurt so i know what he had to endure. i feel bad and havent talked to kyle since. but i need advice like i said above. should i keep tryin, wait to see what he does or what? i mean i have been trying for like a week now and i get the cold shoulder half the time and the other half its like i never told him. its like things were back to how they were b4 i told him. i need help anyone just give me advice please!@!!!!!!
well i am in the stage where i think i want andy back but am not sure. i mean i have my ex adam asking me out, my good good friend jason, and my friend donnie. and i kno that if i wanted to i could have ne one of them. but the guy that i want... i am not sure if i can have. i need advice on what to do. should i just wait to see how he acts and see if he trys to get me back or keep tryin or give up? but heres the thng i messed up....
the night that me and andy broke up we had sex and agreed to be sex buddies. and we made an agreement tht if something happend with another person then the other one would know right away. well the night that we broke up i went to a party got smashed becuase i was heart broken and this guy named ben kept following me and pushing me into sex, but i wouldnt so i kissed kyle since ben was right there hoping to get ben away, and kyle grabbed my head and started making out with me. and i went with it. then i never told andy til like 3 weeks later. and at the time that i finally told him we were basically back together. well the night i told him he said that we were done except friends but if i relly love him like i said then i can try and get him back but only time would tell him if he wanted me back. he said tht over time chances are that he would want me back. but i kno that he just wants to see me try and hurt so i know what he had to endure. i feel bad and havent talked to kyle since. but i need advice like i said above. should i keep tryin, wait to see what he does or what? i mean i have been trying for like a week now and i get the cold shoulder half the time and the other half its like i never told him. its like things were back to how they were b4 i told him. i need help anyone just give me advice please!@!!!!!!