Happy
So today I'm truly happy. Don't know why. No reason really. I got up this morning and was pleased to see that I slept til after 10:00!! I never do that. Then I piddled around making "plans" for next week, doing nothing really. Worked on report cards. Whatever. Then I couldn't get Susie to answer me online OR by text message (yes, she's in the room right outside my door, but she's a sketchy girl in the mornings!!). I decided just to go home and see my Mommy. I laid around talking to her and then Derik came over. It's hard to believe that this time eight years ago I was about to break up with Michael and then end up with Derik five days later. WEIRD. The fair left Union today. The fair was SUCH a huge deal eight years ago and this year (and those in the recent past) it wasn't even important enough to visit. Growing up happens I guess. I went to a movie with Paul (The Exorcism of Emily Rose) and then out to dinner with the family. All in all it was a good day.
I found myself smiling on the car ride back here. Smiling without meaning to. And of course I knew why. And then I began dreading being back here. Because once you're happy, really happy, all you can do is wait for it to be shattered. But guess what? It wasn't. :) If anything it made me happier once I got home. And then the game starts again. Happiness is heightened. Now something ELSE will have to shatter it. The games we play with ourselves. For now I think I'll go to bed and revel in happiness. :)
How appropriate:
"Oh you drive me crazy! Oh, you just bring me down. Look out your window, my sunshine's all around."
~Ashlee Simpson puts it perfectly.
I found myself smiling on the car ride back here. Smiling without meaning to. And of course I knew why. And then I began dreading being back here. Because once you're happy, really happy, all you can do is wait for it to be shattered. But guess what? It wasn't. :) If anything it made me happier once I got home. And then the game starts again. Happiness is heightened. Now something ELSE will have to shatter it. The games we play with ourselves. For now I think I'll go to bed and revel in happiness. :)
How appropriate:
"Oh you drive me crazy! Oh, you just bring me down. Look out your window, my sunshine's all around."
~Ashlee Simpson puts it perfectly.